Saturday, November 13, 2004
sigh... got so many things to do these daes.. but still so sian... yesterdae handed in the KWN thingy...FINALLY!!! so thats one load off my mind.. now can concentrate on SVA le... then yesterdae CO had a test... then also very funny... cuz i was practically not doing anything lorz.. then adeline still say i passed.. hahaz.. then we went to the organic farm yesterdae and the dae b4.. it was very nice and all.. but the bad part was that all of us managed to scrape off at least 30+ bites from the countless mosquitoes there... personally.. i got a grand total of 42 kisses from those " cute " thingyz.. didnt noe until yesterdae that i was actually so "well-loved" by "the other kind"... hahaz.. but anyway.. other than that... the experience was worth the trip and the horror of the "kisses" really... cuz we saw all those greenhouses and how those ppl planted all those vegggies... we really learnt a lot... what really captured me was how those ppl were willing to give and put in so much time and effort just to protect the environment.. furthermore.. we saw how the vegetables had to compete with the weeds for survival... it kinda ironic seriously.. those plants are actually fighting to be eaten... wad kinda of a "survival" is that?? but really... it shows how cruel nature can get.. i mean.. even in the plant world.. only the fittest survives and the weaker ones always have to face the terrible consequences... in the human world... its defeat... its humiliation... downright despise from the winners, the so called stronger ones... and in the plant world... its the terrible death... sigh.. just like the title of ABBA's song... the winner takes it all... sigh...
but anyway... philosophy aside.. i realised i tend to crap a lot on these type if things these daes.. sigh.. wads wrong wif me... maybe i am getting old.. hahaz.. anyway.. its nov 13 today... in less than 24 hourz... it shall be yun haoz bdae.. wad to do... i have to answer him lehz... wad am i supposed to say... should i sae yes or no... this morning i woke up.. and i was thinking.. do i seriously love him?? then i found out i still dunt know... seriously how does it feel lyk when you love somebody??? HELP!!! i really need help lorz... wad to do... limin is foreva telling me to accept him... she saez he treats me very well... but then i thought thats not the point wadz... i mean.. i thought the whole point of being together with the person is that you have to love him or her?? is it based on how good that person treats you??? sigh... i am seriouslu lost... and i totally do Not have any braincells left to think abt tis question ready... HOW???
Q~ ♥
11/13/2004 01:05:00 PM
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