茜的世界

很牛的诗句

2008-06-03T10:51:00.001+08:00

一场地震，生死两难；只道三四险，不知五月难；纵有六双眼，泪也流不完；七颗心儿悬，零八奥运艰；高呼九洲十地华人现，纵使百舸千帆风浪间，也让咱行得万年船！泱泱中华几千年，只是百般无奈斗不过你苍天；十分惨淡，也不知你九重天中住着何神仙，在零八年八月八日还有八十八天时送灾难；但愿七彩祥云现，六月中国保平安，五星红旗永鲜艳;四海升平，三地两岸心连心成一条线！我只想，跪地抬手问苍天，敢应否：下辈子，你做人来我做天！

本想往那诗句上再注解点什么，但发现，一切早已尽在不言中。。。

slackers will get retribution

2008-05-11T16:25:00.001+08:00

i am damn slack these days lahx. i think i'll reap my own laziness very soon. **** cant you work a bit more?

my msn got prob le lahx~ sometimes i am still typing into the conversation but the receivers simply cannot see my messages. damn pissed. haix. sianx. yesterday i was discussing abt the lit presentation with shi ying and in the end we experienced to much technical errors lah~ gosh. i feel very apologentic. sorry shiying~ >:

there are stuff to do. i need to do them. i have to. i am dreaming that i can make my dreams come true. such wonderful daydreams................

i realised its so much faster to type with short nails. i stopped having short nails since like sec two or something.. ever since i started guitar lessons. lolx. quite glad of this feeling actually. lol

o ya! i went to celebrate hong wei's birthday~~ lolx. so cool~ we went to sakura.. just me and hw and hg. pigged out on all the salmon. i just love sashimi~~ lolx. i realised those two guys are totally my sakura mates~ lolx. almost everytime i visit that restaurant it is with those two guys. lolx. amazing. hong wei's life sounds damn vibrant lahx~~ i'm really glad that his dad is well enough now.. when i knew that his dad fell ill i was damn shocked lahx! i mean. suddenly in my life there are so many ppl falling under the mercy of such illnesses. which totally sucks cuz i seriously dun want anyone to be sad or anything. sigh. i lost a loved one to cancer. i dun want that to happen to anyone around me~ ): can you imagine.. had anything happened i dont know how hong wei will react lahx~ and how are we going to treat him? as his frenx we will need to be there for him. but what can we say? if i lost my dad i think i'll just die with him or something. i seriously dunno what i'll do lorhx. its so... unimaginable... aiya. dunno lahx. dunno wad i'm doing or saying anymore

just plain thankful to life

thanks for letting things turn out well. congratx to hong wei and a big shout out to all out there. pls take care of your health.. its so important not just to you but to so many around you. everyone is important to some ppl you noe~ (:

ah well. enough crapping

goodbye

lol

love
wq

ice cream makes me happy!!!

2008-04-29T19:37:00.001+08:00

i went for ben and jerry's today~~~~ its free cones day!!! lol. i had strawberry cheesecake for a starter, followed by a chocolate fudge and then a banana icecream~ gosh. i mean. how much more blessed can i get~ food rocks! lolx

anyway. i must say the ppl i went with is quite weird. lolx. i went with shi ying and junice. who are ok. but guess wad. wei min and matthew came too~ lolx. but nvm. i totally welcome anyone who can appreciate ice cream~ lolx. but still. the guys so weird. wait one whole year ready still only got 1 icecream. i mean. that takes the fun out of it wad~ the whole purpose was for you to get a whole load of ice cream without having to think abt costs wad. lolx. aiya. they not auntie enough. lol

we went for one ice cream with the boys then went long john's for lunch (which i skipped to fit all the ice cream in) and then me shiying and junice went back for second and third servings. lol. the guys just went home lahx~ lol

but hors. i must say. y we all so silent arhx? its like. i really think for a split second that maybe these ppl are the rare ones whom i cant click with lahx. cuz i really got nothing to talk to them about lehx~ but ah well. i guess that happens in life bahx. just that i still feel a bit not used to it~ cuz very seldom got ppl i cant click with you see. lolx. omg. i feel qian bian. lol. i take that back. lol

o~ then after that shiying went for her fourth ice cream.. but i left for school cuz i promised megan i would go with her for math clinic. cuz if not she will be alone there you see. lolx. ah well. so ya. i went back alone. staring into space on 171. lolx. i love buses. they give me time to reflect and stone. lolx

having stj tomorrow. but up till today we still havent settled the place and all yet. lolx. dunno lahx. i shall just wait for them to sort it out. lolx. but i am looking forward to it lahx~ hope tomorrow will be a fun day~ lolx

but seriously~ i really think its about time i start mugging le. i keep telling myself that i haven started yet this time two years ago and i made it into hc anyway. so theres not much point to start so early... but still!!! everyone is mugging their asses off le lahx!!! well.. almost everyone... lolx. hence. i feel very intimidated. hence. i should start soon. sigh. dark and gloomy days of nights and books... sobx

i swear i am going to finish either my lit essay today or econs notes. or else i am not sleeping today! humph! lolx. but i guess i can afford the lack of sleep bahx. due to all the ice cream i had today.. i need to burn some calories off. lolx. not that i really care abt weight. but still. i need to make sure that i dun get like heart attacks when i grow older or somthing. lolx. even though i dun mind dying early but i would never wanna die in a hospital all battered and withering cuz of some gross illness. hence i must make sure i am healthy! <:

i am still quite disturbed by the no. of ppl who are mixing ideology up with politics. wad is freedom if you cant allow ppl to chose? y cant the world at least try to be more considerate and look at the larger and fairer picture. maybe in that case you will realise that before you try to comment and criticize others you have to realise that you are at fault with something too. i mean. i still believe in karma. do all you want now and i am sure you will suffer the consequences de. whether is it interpersonally or politically. i really think so. look at US for the best example and epitome of my theory. you guys can not agree with me though. at least i wont force my feelings onto someone else.

but saying this.. i dun think i am exactly a very considerate person also wad. sigh. i guess everyone is selfish in some ways.

but when we see the sincere ppl. we will doubt their sincerity. i always prided myself in my sensitivity to things de. but now. i am starting to doubt le. after yesterday's econs incident... i dun noe. i really dun understand y she has to cry lehx. i mean. is there no other way? but still i feel very bad abt it lahx~ as in. i am not made of wood. even if i cant empathise with her. i can sympathise with her de.. sorry mrs lim. i noe you are concerned abt us. i will be more serious abt econs from now on de. i hope i will fulfil this promise... haix. its really all for our own good wad. she has nothing to gain from all these arhx. she's just a class C teacher lehx.. she dun need the money de arhx. she could totally just not teach at all mahx. so i guess its the passion bahx. i mean. i really dun think she is the kind who will put up false fronts just for ppl to follow her instructions one. and i really dun think she is a very good actor. hence its not quite possible that her tears are fake. that may happen to other ppl but i really want to and in fact do believe that she is really just worrying for us. sigh. guess she is just really soft~ those that will cry due to small matters.. like hm or something... lol. but most sincerely from the bottom of my heart. thanks for caring and we are sorry~ ):

the gals are taking sats on sat~ lolx. jia yous ppl! many prayers and all the best! i have faith in you guys. you all mugged so hard. confirm can do well one! (:

2008-04-10T21:59:00.001+08:00

all the best for the upcoming olympics!

i sincerely feel that the world should view the olympics in a more positive light. instead of taking it as a convenient platform to dump all your negative opinions towards the country or its ways,thereby sabotaging the event altogether, why dont we all treat this as a fair and respectable sporting event. return the sporting rights to the well deserving, world class atheletes! i am sure that evey country view their own atheletes as their pride and joy. thus, should we not give them the chance to perform for the world to see? rather than trying to spoil the whole event for the atheletes, should we not exercise open mindedness and not mix politics into this pure and glorious event.

moreover, for some other countries or even individuals who are taking the advantage of this time to voice their disdains over certain practices that the country is upholding, i would still think that this is a very unfair thing to do. for most of us who are, or see ourselves as, advocates of democracy, why are we not giving the country her chance to do as they wish? most countries will feel that china is ill treating the tibetians or fueling the darfur crisis. however, one wonders if simply by putting china in a negative light would lead to the smooth solving of all problems. wouldnt further steps of discussion be more appropriate? simply blocking out the voices in china and turning a blind eye to her people's views do not help ease the tensions, but fire it up more than before.

hence, i conclude that it is my opinion that china should be strongly supported in its very first attempt to step up into the world arena to show itself as once more a strong superpower that has the ability to shine! 加油中国！

lol
this was some kind of a response i made to a comment. lolx. anyway. for all out there who supports the china olymics taking place this summer. pls click the following link and cast your vote to give the atheletes and give freedom your support. thanks. (:

http://www.thecima.org/

2008-03-27T21:46:00.002+08:00

lolx. i am stoned. irony of it all.

samuel allan poe vs edgar taylor coleridge

life rocks

2008-03-23T23:30:00.002+08:00

yay~blocks are coming to an end.. light is reentering my life in bits and pieces.. this blocks had been a tough one.. or maybe its cuz i didnt prepare very much. i cant seem to tell the diff anymore. guess thats wad happens when you finally realise that you r not up to standard. ah well. nvm.

lol

i got really crazy these past 3 days doing everything that i wanted to do during the exams.. ie. going shopping with frenx and going crazy with my computer. lolx. the simplest pleasures in life. got together with glad again after a really long time. realised tat we still could talk about everything under the sun. quite thankful for that. i was quite scared that we would run out of like common topics to say after missing out on each other's lives for so long. but ah well~ hahax.

with one paper ahead of me. life is more relaxed than many others in my sch. i pity all those with bio chem math cll combi. i mean.. they have bio and chem clashing with both papers of cll. how sucky can their timetables be man?? lolx. so kudos to all taking that combi. you guys are heroes! its ending soon ya~ jia you!! (:

i've been thinking abt some weird stuff these days.. not getting very many conclusions still.. but just to let the future me know.. wang qian is thinking abt some weirdo stuff.. and reflecting a lot these days. realised i'm never one to keep with promises made to myself.. gosh. y do i have so little self determination?? lolx

nvm

was watching the rose again these days. dunno y.. just felt like doing that. and i got reminded of the lullaby that was in that show.. it had wonderful lyrics and all. so i shall post it here. lol. its by dong li huo che btw. so you can imagine how amazing the voice is. (:

親愛寶貝乖乖要入睡
我是你最溫暖的安慰
爸爸輕輕守在你身邊
你別怕黑夜
我的寶貝不要再流淚
你要學著努力不怕黑
未來你要自己去面對
生命中的夜
寶寶睡
好好的入睡
爸爸永遠陪在你身邊
喜悅和傷悲
不要害怕面對
勇敢我寶貝
守护每一夜

i mean.. its really soothing and all. and it sorta brings out the beauty and the soul of the love that a father can give his child. imagine a dad with his lanky build and rough hands caressing the soft and silky skin of his baby's, him trying his utmost best to be as gentle as he possibly can to not disturb his beloved child. him wanting to instill all the love that he can give into the small figure in his hands, yet restraining himself and keeping his every move to the minimum just so that his child is happy.. him mustering all his courage to sing the song, letting his love to follow the tune and the lyrics into the space around him and away to the skies.. him declaring his utmost protection for this baby and hoping to give all that he has got to make sure that his child have a blissful life ahead.

but of course.. i'm thinking too much again. lol.

i realised i have a tendency to fantasize abt many things and inject a lot of subjectivity into all that i see. thats not a fair thing to do actually.. but i cant help but want to believe that the world is in fact a very beautiful place~ sigh. i guess i'm still too idealistic for my own good. like wad my frenx always tell me..

sigh~ life....

2008-02-21T22:29:00.002+08:00

人生啊~ 呵呵。。突然很想用中文写点什么，所以就来了。
最近生活其实挺充实的
但是还是有点后悔
后悔当初啊~~~
人生
怎么说呢
总觉得自己不应该这么消极，但又没有办法控制情绪。
咳……我的思绪应该是属于我的嘛~怎么会变成这样？
我想让时间倒退
就算我的付出相应的代价，似乎也变得么那么重要了。。。
这样将会不会很不王茜。。。
像是。。。
人生
生活
活该

2008-02-11T22:21:00.000+08:00

BEIJING: Beijing Olympic organisers said Monday they backed a ban on political protests by athletes attending this year's Games, amid uproar over an effort to silence British athletes.

Following widespread anger, the British Olympic Association (BOA) backed down Sunday on its plan to prevent British competitors from commenting on "politically sensitive issues" surrounding the August 8-24 Summer Games.

Beijing Olympic organising committee spokesman Sun Weide said he had no direct comment to make on the controversy swirling in Britain.

But he said all athletes were expected to follow the Olympic Charter, drawn up by the International Olympic Committee (IOC), which outlaws political acts.

"I hope that the Olympic spirit will be followed and also the relevant IOC regulations will be followed in every regard," said Sun when asked for comment about the issue of political protests.

China is believed to be concerned that some of the 10,000 athletes expected here for the Games could be used by human rights activists and other groups to stage protests designed to draw attention to their causes.

But according to a number of national Olympic committees in Asia contacted by AFP, China has put no pressure on countries to silence their Olympians and Sun insisted Beijing wanted to welcome all competitors.

"Beijing welcomes all athletes from around the world to participate in the Beijing Olympic Games and we have been trying hard to create the best possible conditions for athletes to do so," he said.

The controversy erupted in Britain after the Mail on Sunday newspaper reported that the BOA had threatened that any athlete who refused to sign the gag order would not be allowed to travel to China.

Any British participant who signed the order and then spoke out during the Games would be sent home, according to the initial plan.

The controversial clause in the contract stated that athletes "are not to comment on any politically sensitive issues."

It then refers to Section 51 of the Olympic Charter, which says, "No kind of demonstration or political, religious or racial propaganda is permitted in any Olympic sites, venues or other areas."

Following the uproar in Britain, the BOA said it would have another look at the wording of the controversial clause.

BOA chief executive Simon Clegg said on Sunday the "interpretation of one part of the draft BOA's Team Members' Agreement appears to have gone beyond the provision of the Olympic Charter."

Though some countries are known to have told their athletes to respect the charter while in Beijing, none appear to have gone as far as the BOA.

Several national Olympic committees contacted by AFP on Monday said they had no agreements limiting free speech and denied there was any pressure from China to do so.

"Maybe the British are very different and they speak out more," said Chris Chan, secretary general of the Singapore National Olympic Council.

"But I don't think our athletes or even those from Southeast Asia dare to speak their minds."
The Thai Olympic Committee said athletes automatically knew not to comment on sensitive matters.

Issues considered politically sensitive in communist-ruled China range from human rights, religious freedom, Tibet, Taiwan to Beijing's role in Sudan.

In response to rising criticism at home and from overseas, the Chinese government has tightened its grip on critics, with a number of opponents of the regime detained in recent months.

International press freedom groups have accused China of failing to live up to a promise that it would grant unfettered access to the country for foreign journalists covering the Games. - AFP/ac

lol
i tot the above was damn funny.. especially the bolded parts.
i mean
how much sadder can countries get?
lol
britian~~~ to think we are under your education system~
is that y its so screwed??
LOL
and the petty arguments that countries can hold with each other
gosh
isnt it AMAZING!!
lol

2008-02-10T17:44:00.000+08:00

i cant bring myself to do work. so i'm bloggin

haven done anything during this long weekend
cuz i was busy bai nian-ing
lol
went to mr lim's house just now
really cool
it feels like family~
as in..
with elite team 1+2
lol
we rock the world!

i'm feverish again!!!
seriously.. i think i'm gonna die soon
must be due to my lack of sleep
but wad can i do?
i've got so much that i need to cram into my schedule
how do you expect me to finish everything without sacrificing sleep??
wonder how cao lei manages to make use of her time so wisely~
sigh.. GENIUSES!!!
lol

ah well
i feel accomplished~
i updated my blog!
lol

happy new year guys~ (:

2008-01-12T23:05:00.000+08:00

gosh. i just realised.. despite this blog being here for such a long time.. relatively.. it has such an amazingly depressing number of entries~ haix. explains my hopeless procrastination. lolx. left so many things out. but ah well. i'm glad theres always my diary to turn to.

listening to sodagreen
again
gosh. i simply cant kick my habit of listening to them.
i mean
they are soooo special
and zhu hao said they sucked! gosh! daox!!! unappreciative ppl! to think i actually let him direct ctrl c cntrl v-ed my gp assignment which i took one bloody week to complete(ignore my only spending abt 2 hrs a day on them lahx)! gosh! instead of bein apologentic abt wronging my idols he still continues claiming that qingfeng uses falsetto to sing! WHICH IS TOTALLY NOT TRUE!!! boo you zhu hao!! lolx.
你怎么对得起人民党与祖国呢？！？！ LOL

唉。人生啊~ 怎么会那么无聊呢？听歌似乎已经成了我唯一解闷的唯一方法了。这就是做独生女的悲哀吧~ 当你一个人在家里面对四面墙的时候，总会有种不由自主地冲动，想做点什么，证明自己其实还存在。就是想听到另一个人的声音，好说服自己，世界其实并不孤单。想打个电话给别人，却又害怕回吵到他们。况且可怕的自尊也会告诫自己，不能认输！不能向寂寞低头！要坚强！要振作！神~ 如果我就这样一个人孤单的死去，会不会有人发现？

王茜好想不应该那么深沉~ 呵呵。

anyway~ y the hell am i bloggin in chinese? lolx.

yes. i was trying to say. school started.

i'm quite contented now actually.. life is kind.. for now

cuz we are not yet toooo bugged down by sch.. still have time for frenx and stuff

gosh

cant seem to imagine a's is comin in abt 9 months. i mean.. its all so surreal.. just when i got out of the after o's hols mood.. i find myself jumping into the a's.

but ah well. i shall stop this lament.

o~ and i was saying.. i quite like school now not just for the frenx. but actually the teachers too. i think augustine wong is seriously cool~ even though most ppl will think i'm outta my mind for saying this. lolx. but i mean.. his passion for the subject is so evident lahx! and thats the thing thats actually fuelling my desire to further the subject. just like how my many chinese teachers pushed me to further my studies in the language. gosh. teachers are really important to a person dun you think? lolx

hence. to all my frens out there who are intending to step into the line of educating. THINK THRICE!! lolx. pls understand that the responsibilities that you will be facing is seriously very very VERY VERY

VERY

enorma-gous-ly HUGE!

lolx. for the sake of our future generations. CONSIDER whether you really have this passion or not first can? lolx.

ah~ auggy wong~~ lolx

2007-12-28T23:22:00.000+08:00

omg. i read my previous posts cuz i got too bored. WANG QIAN IS SO CHILDISH!!!

gosh. though i noe i was still sec 2 at that time. but still!!! lolx.

the thing is.. i saw a lot of names that i tot i had forgotten.. i mean. when's the last time i talked to c n r?? lolx. i hardly think they still remember their little sister lahx! lolx. i guess.. time really does a lot to ppl. thinking back. i realised there are a lot of things whom i tot was rite that may not have been the case. and its like. there are some things which i used to bank my life on... which turned out to be some sick joke. sigh. is that what life is all about? deception and disguise?? is that wad oliver goldsmith is trying to tell ppl? lolx. ah well.

2007-12-28T15:58:00.000+08:00

got this off somewhere. quite cool in my opinion. lolx. ah well.

i mean... yea.. y do we not off our phones at night? who's call or message are we waiting for??

一天，朋友问我一个问题，晚上的时候你关机吗？不关机，那你是为谁呢？

　　我一向不关机，但是为了什么呢？我不知道，后来我看了一篇文章，我有点明白了，只为了那丝牵挂。现在我把它拿出来与大家分享。

　　女孩每天临睡会先关掉手机，然后把它放在写字台自己的相架前，这个习惯从买了手机的时候就这样保持着。

　　女孩有个很要好的男朋友，两个人不见面的时候，就打打电话或发发短信，大家都喜欢这样的联络方式。

　　有一天夜里，男孩很想念女孩子，打了过去却关机，因为女孩已经睡下了。第二天，男孩对女孩说：“以后晚上不要关机，好么？我想你的时候找不到你，心会不安。”

　　从那以后，女孩开始另一种习惯——整夜都不关机。因为害怕他打来自己会因睡死而听不到，女孩夜夜都很警醒，人便日渐消瘦。然而，慢慢地，两个人之间还是有了裂痕。

　　女孩很想挽回即将分手的局面，便在一个深夜里给男孩打电话，回答她的却是很好听的女声：“Sorry，你所拨打的电话已关机。”

　　于是女孩知道，她的爱情已经关机。

很久以后，女孩有了另一场爱情。虽然两个人在一起的感觉也很好，但女孩怎么也不肯嫁。女孩的心里还是会想起那个男孩的话和那个关机的夜。

　　女孩还是保持着整夜不关机的习惯，只是不再期待它会响起。

　　一天夜里，女孩身染急症，慌乱之中把本想拨给父母的电话拨到了新的男友那里。男孩早已睡下，但手机还开着。

　　后来女孩问这个男孩：“为什么深夜还不关机？”

　男孩说：“我怕你夜里有事找不到我，会心慌。”

　　女孩最终嫁给了这个男孩。

　　夜深了，你的手机关了吗？

2007-12-26T15:27:00.001+08:00

城市交响曲

“现在是谣言侵略事实的时代
必须偷看哪个谁是不是在偷看
现在是现在侵略过去的时代
必须悲哀快乐所带来的更悲哀”
-苏打绿

雨，忙碌得下着；像是明白自己的使命一般，努力地下着、下着。人类在害怕；怕这场目的明确的雨会把自己价值连城的衣裳糟蹋，所以他们努力地奔跑、奔跑。人们的心情拼凑在一起，整个城市的寂寞笼罩了一切。五光十色的浮华本来就是一场冠冕堂皇的美梦，惊醒后，剩下的往往只是一道道莫名的伤口，隐隐作痛。四处张望，看那一张张陌生，僵硬的脸，心里萌生一个疑问：他们会不会笑？大家匆匆的脚步声，打出一种让人跟不上的旋律，令我们疏离彼此，越来越远。

从天堂鸟瞰着大地的神明啊，你难道也迷失了方向？或者，世界就是你给我们的考验？那如何才能征服这场浩劫？到底是人们进入了理智的世界，还是我们脱离了感性的范围？

就在这里，一个不一样的身影映入眼帘。他是与众不同的。相对于在他身边穿梭的人们，此人显得格外落魄；衣衫褴褛，蓬头垢面，骨瘦如柴。他面前摆着一个到处是缺口的瓷碗，坐在一个不起眼的角落。一般人不可能发现他的存在，直到他提起了他那把老旧的吉他。雨仍毫不客气的操纵着世人的脚步，把他逼到墙头仅有的小屋檐下。音符，在这个冷飕飕的街角扬起。经过他的每一双脚，都像是提前说好了一样，下意识的放慢了步伐。

他的琴声，诠释了绕梁三日的极致；时而轻如止水，时而荡气回肠。一切伸缩自如，听进路人们的心房里去了。每一段乐，都传递着温暖。那一霎那，人，好想没那么冷了。打从心里散发出的热量，在大家的面颊染上一层红晕，画出一道道美丽的微笑。在这令人激动的时刻，老天都似乎体会到了我们的震撼；雨，小了，停了。这么一来，他的听众更多了，但他似乎没发现，只是自顾自的波动着琴弦。一首首歌，有些耳熟能详，有些十分新鲜，但统一的是，他们都超出想象的令人感动。

曲子弹完了，人们掌声如雷，欢呼，喝彩，然后渐渐的，人潮散去。我纳闷的看着他们，心里有些懵懂。难道，这就是他们要表示的所有鼓励？难道这些人没有看出这演奏者面临的困难？还是，那就是与生俱来的本能？金钱，到底想把人类推往一个什么样的深渊？

望着那空如依稀的碗底，我提那位演奏者深感不值。掏出钱包，挖了挖，找出了几个硬币，投到碗里去。那时的我，很看不起自己。我跟别人，又有什么不一样？甚至，我比那些路人更糟！最少他们很真诚地面对了自己的无情，而我，做不到视而不见，却又舍不得慷慨解囊。就在我近乎被自责淹没的同时，演奏者像是感到我的尴尬一般，头抬了一抬，眼睛毫无焦距的望着前方，嘴角慢慢向上微微翘起，吐出两个字：“谢谢”。

我的脸“刷”的红了。

身后，传来一阵不怀好意的笑声。挺着健硕的身躯，一个浓眉大眼的年轻人走到他的身边，伸出他那只穿戴着闪闪发亮的白金指环和名牌手表的爪子，用一种可恨的哭腔在演奏家面前颤抖着：“行行好吧！我已经很多天没吃饭了！帮帮忙吧！”

那一刻，我差点没上去赏那败类一巴掌！他凭什么如此嘲笑一个深处绝境的，怀才不遇的天才？他凭什么如此冷血的打击他的自尊，侮辱他的人格？他如何对得起他一身的财富？如何对得起上苍赐于他的幸福？他凭什么认为仅仅因他比别人幸运就有资格嘲笑别人？

就在我火冒三丈的当而，一系列的动作在我眼前慢动作地进行着。那演奏家弯下腰，开始在地上毫无头绪的摸索，他的手指看上去好细，但好粗糙，好憔悴。他碰到了他在寻找的瓷碗，从里面检出了我刚投进去的三个硬币，惦了惦重量，挑出那个面值最小的，放进了口袋里，剩下的两个，放进手掌心，坚定的伸出他布满老茧的手。

我惊呆了。但我相信，那一瞬间，那年轻人，肯定比我所承受的震撼更震撼，比我的愧疚还愧疚。我看到那演奏家那天的第二次微笑。那年轻人接过了硬币，善良的硬币，在太阳的照射下，发着属于它们的光芒，都么耀眼。眼睛被刺得好疼。闭上双眼，感觉两行液体慢慢淌下脸颊。

在这个被现代、被文明，丢弃的角落里，人性的故事上演着，循环着，提醒着人类 ---- 生命的本质，不是邪恶，是那三个被滥用太久了的字眼：真、善、美。当冷漠渐渐演绎成一种对生活习惯的方式时，真情的救赎与馈增似乎都带上欺骗和目的。欲望所带给世界的寂寞，把我们搞得灰头土脸，令人们不再愿意寻找真实和温暖。城市中的霓虹灯仿佛团团鬼火，而我们这些小小的，脆弱的飞蛾则情不自禁地被它们勾了过去，最终也化为了点点星辰。飞蛾扑火是一种无奈，一种情不自禁，一种宿命。我们互相看着彼此，明知道自己在沦陷，却仍不顾一切向前一直走，一直走。在有序的混乱中，人性的迷失正引发着一场自我否定的浩劫。

抬起头，努力的想把泪水收回，却无能为力，覆水难收。然而，豁然发现，经过种种沧海桑田的天空依旧那么蔚蓝，雨过天晴的空气格外清新。一个突发奇想把自己考倒了：那演奏家看不见这花花世界，却体会了人性的真谛，那我们呢？我们这幸运的一群，没有身体上的缺陷，为什么却无法正视在我们身上发生的问题？不说别人，就连我自己，又何时才能脱离现实的束缚呢？奇迹，难道真的仅属于梦想的国度？希望，难道不可能会从这一刻开始降临大地；从这篇关于演奏家的文章起，从那年轻人的觉悟起，从那演奏家的无私起……

“这座城市里面试着让自己没有那么糟
人像落叶迎面在一座孤独岛中间我微笑”

-苏打绿

完
王茜 07A10

a new essay. the ending a bit weird. cuz i didnt have enough words... so anyhow zham. lolx. sad. aiyah. wadeva lahx. must humour that teacher you see. lolx. its a creative writing that is supposedly about taiwan... lolx. shit. i forgot it must be relating to taiwan. hence. WADEVA~ i shall just tell the teacher i didnt noe. lolx. got do very give him face le ok~ haix. cheerx~

2007-12-25T12:52:00.001+08:00

hi guys!! merry christmas~~~ lolx.

2007-12-21T22:03:00.000+08:00

The following is not a list of rules. They're suggestions to encourage guys to be gentlemen. Take 'em or leave 'em.

0. There are always exceptions to this list. The foundational exception is when you actually talk to the her and she says something different than what is included within this list. These suggestions don't provide you with the holy grail of dating or offer you the Ten Commandments for the Ladies Man, they're simply a push in the right direction for being a gentleman.

1. Open doors when possible - whether it be to a building or the passenger car door. the classic example that's stood the test of time.

2. When in a place of worship (or other places that have aisles and pews), if a man is at the end of the pew, when exiting he should stand in the aisle and let all the females go before him. (This seems odd to some people, yet normal for others. If you don't get it, don't worry about it, okay?)

3. A man should tolerate the occasional chick flick, musical, opera, or ballet - whatever her preference is - *without* complaining about it! (Because the guy may just like it.)

4. Play one of the songs that would make any woman weep like the little girl she once was (but in a good way). A brief list includes, but certainly isn't limited, to:
"You & Me" by Lifehouse
Anything by Frank Sinatra
Any rendition of "Everything I Do, I Do it for You"
"Collide" by Howie Day
"Out Of My League" by Steven Speaks
And MOST IMPORTANTLY "Question" by the Old 97's (if you propose to a girl with this song, she is putty in your hands).
("Putty in your hands" is not meant to promote "using women" in any way. This group does not encourage guys to be polite in order to get her into bed.)

5. Talk! The strong & silent bit goes from intriguing to boring quite fast.

6. Find out what her favorite flower is and buy them for her randomly (regardless of the situation you might be in). A simple yet profound truth: a single rose says more than dozens of anything else. (I encourage the women to not allow a guy to "prove himself worthy" through gifts and flowers and such. Trust is a precious thing and it should take a good chunk of time before he gains it back in your heart.)

7. If you miss her, or love her, TELL HER! Even your friends like to hear it every now & again.

8. Re-enact Zales commercials (the ice is nice but certainly not mandatory).

9. Remember: the best gifts you can give are usually free of cost.

10. Leave a note (or send a message) just to say "hi".

11. Ask her questions about herself.

12. Dress nice every once & a while. Any girl likes to see her brother/friend/boyfriend/etc. in a well-ironed button-up with some nice slacks.

13. PRIDE & PREJUDICE ...that's all I have to say about that (I mean, that should speak for itself). (It's even more impressive if he has read the book.)

14. Tolerate small children as best you can. Meaning, put up with the things that can get annoying. They're children, after all. Show them love and care, teach them how to become a better man than you. (You were once extremely irritating. Get over the obnoxious kids and enjoy getting down to their level - not "for her", but for the good of yourself and others.)

15. Learn to dance! There is nothing sexier than a man who can dance really well. If God did not bless you with the grace of Fred Astaire, at least put forth the effort, it will be greatly appreciated. Always slow dance (even if it's just like you danced in middle school). Also, men, sing to a lady. Even if you're terrible, suck it up! They love to listen to it and will not care what you sound like. It's the thought that counts on this one. Unless you're just downright terrible, nothing sexy about that. Haha, thanks, Jade!

16. Kiss her on the forehead.

17. When she's sick, stay up with her. If you can cook (which is *always* a plus), make her some soup. If you can't cook, there's Campbell's soup at hand for you.

18. Pretend to throw her in the pool (or fountain/pond). If you really do throw her in, you'd better jump in yourself. **NOTE** There are some women who just hate this apparently, so you had better do two things: 1) Never allow your buddies be a part of it if you're unsure of how she feels about getting thrown in and 2) You had better know how she feels about it!

19. Hold her hand while you talk, drive, or just for the heck of it (it's the small things that win you big points).

20. LOOK IN HER EYES, NOT AT HER CHEST!!!!!

21. Stupid jokes = awkwardly adorable moments.

22. Tickle her, tease her, let her tease you back without getting all bent out of shape about it.

23. Don't call her hot, or pretty, or cute; call her beautiful, because that's what she is. (I don't think cute is that bad, but definitely stay away from "hot" [it's so overused and superficial] and step "pretty" up to beautiful or gorgeous or stunning or captivating or...)

24. Offer her your jacket/sweatshirt. (Note: you may not see that particular item of clothing for a while, if ever again).

25. Don't be too proud to apologize.

26. It's not stalking to watch her sleep if you fall asleep watching a movie. It is stalking to watch her sleep if you're standing outside her window with night vision goggles.

27. When she feels at her worst, tell her she looks her best.

28. If you're trying to get more than friendship out of the relationship, take it slow and never rush her.

29. Just because you're a guy doesn't mean you are completely incapable of calling when you say you will, it just means you are highly incapable of it. There are few acceptable answers to, "Why didn't you call?", & being male is not one of them.

30. Don't check out other girls in front of your female friends/sisters/mother, unless you are sincere when you later ask them if you think she could introduce the two of you for more reasons than you "want to get some".

31. Guys - always offer to pay for the date. No matter how expensive it gets, especially if YOU asked HER on the date. [if she is willing to pay now and again, don't let your "man pride" get in the way of her wanting to give back to you. she should understand money can be tight - especially when you're always buying]

32. Always do everything in your power to keep her as happy as you can. And cheer her up in any way possible. [if she isn't always happy - and i've never met a girl who is - don't be afraid of her and don't be stupid and always, unquestioningly, blame it on PMS. be there WITH her when times are tough and she wants you there.]

33. When walking on the sidewalk, always walk on the outside near traffic. (So everyone has a different opinion for how this started. For some, it's because of the human waste that was getting thrown out the windows when this was happening a century ago. The woman walked under the overhangings extending from the buildings with the guy in the open to take the mess if need be. Others say it's from the guy's scabbard/sword being on his left with the woman walking on the right. As for today, it's the traffic and puddles and what-not. Whatever it is. It's just a courtesy thing, if it seems necessary.)

34. At least do everything in your power to keep cursing to a minimum while around her. If you can, cut it out period while around her, or cut it out of your vocabulary. Women don't want to hear it, guys don't care about it, adults don't want to hear it, it doesn't impress employers, and you sure won't want your children or someone else's to hear it!

35. Sometimes you have to take the initiative. Don't always wait for her to come to you, because if that's how it always is, you're going to lose her.

36. If any lady is walking alone to her car in a dark parking lot/garage, or is carrying a heavy load, always offer to help walk her to her destination and carry things, if not the entire load. **This may work a lot better and come off non-stalkerish if you at least know the girl you're trying to help. Haha thanks to a LOT of people on this revision.**

37. If a woman says no, let that be her final answer with maybe one question of confirmation after her first answer. Do not pressure or force her in any way after that. Don't make her give in to something she doesn't want to do.

38. Always be honest with her. No woman wants or likes a dishonest man. If you can't be honest with her, she can't trust you, and shows you don't trust her enough to be honest. Trust, honesty and integrity are just as an integral part of a relationship and just as important as love.

39. A man should always genuinely listen to women; no matter how bored or busy the man is. Actively listening to the woman will keep him from pain (and bring the man and woman closer together). This works best, of course, when both the man and the woman actively and equally engage in conversation (this includes listening). For the ladies reading this, please talk - always talk - especially if you are having problems with the relationship and to also avoid making bigger problems.

copied this from py's blog. so thanks py. i just wanted to spread the word around. cuz the world is getting increasingly deprived of gentlemen. sigh. sad

2007-12-07T18:20:00.000+08:00

yoyo!!! I"M IN TAIWAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gosh gosh gosh gosh gosh gosh gosh!!!!

how perfect can my life be? lolx

gosh gosh gosh gosh

tell me wad you guys need okay? just email me or something lorhx..

omg

i'm seriously lacking of sleep and i'm seriously tired and i'm FREAKING HIGH!!!

2007-11-27T18:26:00.000+08:00

i thinkmy post got cut off just now. damn. it was such a long post.

anyway. saw this in my inbox.. buried amongst junk mails. my warmest regards to willy boo who sent it out. you made my world a lighter place today~ lolx.

One politician, One thief & One AJC student died & went straight to hell.

Politician said
'I miss my country. I want to call my country and see how everybody is doing there.'

She called and talked for about 5 minutes,
then she asked 'Well, devil how much do I need to pay for the call????

The devil says 'Five million dollars'.

The Politician wrote him a cheque and went to sit back on her chair.

Thief was so jealous, he starts screaming,
'My turn! I wanna call my group members, I want to see how everybody is doing there too'

He called and talked for about 2 minutes,
then he asked 'Well, devil, how much do I need to pay for the call????

The devil says 'Ten million dollars'.

With a smug look on his face, he made a cheque and went to sit back on his chair.

AJ student was even more jealous & started screaming,
'I want to call my school friends and teacherss',

He called friends and teachers in AJ and he talked for twenty hours about
Application question for gp,
demandand supply for economics,
superposition for physics,
statistics for maths,
transition metals for chemistry,
organisation and control of prokaryote and eukaryote genome for bio,
written report for project work,
he talked & talked & talked,

then he asked
'Well, devil how much do I need to pay for the call????

The devil says 'Twenty dollars'.

Politician was stunned & said 'Twenty dollars??? Only ??'

Devil says (scroll down)

'Calling from Hell to hell is a local call'

lol. for those of you who know what i mean.. LOL

i'm glad to be back home~ its during times like these when you realise that singapore is SUCH a GREEN city! gosh. lol

i had a wonderful time.

*Bliss*

2007-10-22T07:47:00.000+08:00

hey ppl~~ why am i suddenly blogging again? i have no idea.. but when you are bored.. you are bored.. haix

why is life sooooooooooo boring now? i totally should not have came to school. sigh. wanna die.. nono. cannot die! holidays in 5 days!! actually such simple countdowns are like super tough to keep up. realise for every few SECONDS you will start thinking that it is not yet time to lower that number. sharks. i am at a loss of words. is there any vocab to substitute SIGH! SIIIIGH

currently waiting for xy they all.. but shes not coming! i swear if this continues for 5 more minutes i'll hop on to a bus and leave this bloody school. i mean.. wad the hell is the reason for them to be trapping us in school? i mean.. they don even have LESSONS for us to go to~ yes. wang qian is demanding for LESSONS from hwa chong. i mean. if you guys have nothing for us to do.. PLS just stop making us come to school. i noe you guys are a bunch of old ppl~ but STILL!! cant you guys TRY to understand how time is important to us?? i could so have been at home SLEEPING!! gosh. lolx

anyway.. i wanted to crash nj today. but still. i was really afraid we would end up with nothing to talk abt. or worse. maybe those ppl will not even be there. aiya. wadeva it is.. i would hate to ... catcha later.. xy ask me help her open the door. lolx.

2007-10-14T22:45:00.000+08:00

我想握住你的手

睁开眼睛，发现生活中其实又太多太多的东西需要我们去珍惜。家庭，朋友，爱人，甚至是工作，和物质上的享受，等等。我很贪心，我不愿割舍生命的任合一部分。但，老天似乎不认为我有资格拥有这么多。死神，我拒绝握你的手；我属于生命，属于现在，属于未来！

晚上，我做了一个梦，梦见自己变成一只狼，凶狠，残酷。我聚精会神的寻找猎物。锁定目标，一个箭步，一次跳跃，锋利的牙齿毫不留情的咬住了我的晚餐。那时，我被吓醒了。最后的那触目惊心的一幕，深深烙印在我的脑海里。这是否就是所谓的胜者为王，败者为寇？弱肉强食，真的是天经地义的人间真谛？我不仅把被盖得更严实些，身体，却还是不听话的开始发抖。我已经成了废人了吗？我即将被淘汰了吗？死神，我害怕握你的手，我害怕离开这色彩斑斓的大千世界。

早晨，医生委婉地把化验报告的结果与我解释了一遍，简单来说，我还有一个月可以活。

工作岗位上的朋友很快知道了这个消息，各个带了些小玩意来，要我不要太伤心，不要想不开。奇怪，一个快要死的人，有啥好想不开的，难道，他们以为我还会做傻事吗？何必？我已经走到生命的尽头了，他们以为我等不了这几天？我礼貌地收下了礼物，有一搭没一搭的和他们聊了一会儿天，大家似乎都很不自在，不想在这充满死亡的空间里逗留太久，好像怕我把霉运传给他们一样。但我并不怪他们。毕竟，有谁回想和死亡扯上边。不久后，他们就找借口离开了。不知道，我死后，会不会有个比我能干的人接替我的位子，公司有会不会因为我得离开而蒙受损失？遗憾的是，我管不了那么多了。死神，我憎恨你对我伸出的手，因为它让我失去了努力得来的一切成果。

我的生命只剩下短短的两个礼拜了。感觉十分不可思议。总觉得，死亡越来越不可怕了。我好像慢慢接受了这个事实。前两天，我男朋友来看过我。那是一次很奇妙的医院之约。我以为我们会像以前一样，吵架，浪费生命，甚至想过，会不会是这一次，他会不会说他不要我了。或许，我早已失去了留住他的资格了，毕竟，我已无法再陪伴他度过未来的风风雨雨了。见面后，我的心像打了兴奋剂，扑通扑通的跳个不停。直到他给我讲了那个故事，我才真正释怀了。

“从前有一株小草，很不起眼地长在墙角边。他爱上了夕阳，所以每一个夕阳西下，他都非常快乐。他知道自己永远触摸不到恋人的脸，更无法和她交谈，但他仍然幸福。虽然当春天过去，冬天到来时，自己可能将面对生命中的最后一个夕阳，可他明白，得到快乐的人总是懂得满足。幸福，词典中不会有解释。只要自己认为自己是幸福的，自己就很幸福！”

是啊。生老病死不可怕。可怕的是我们大家都放弃希望。我庆幸他没有放弃我。我可以感觉到，就算我离开这个世界，也不可能从他心里消失。这是否也是一种心有灵犀。

临终前，父母来陪我走完最后一段路。他们仍不肯放弃，坚持对我说：“阿灵，不怕！爸爸妈妈在你身边。就算要爸爸妈妈的两条老命，我们也跟你一起和死神抗战到底！爸爸妈妈不会离开你的！”

爸妈，你们不懂。我早已真心地接受了这个事实。我这一生都过得很充实，很愉快。现在的我不需要什么活着的有呼吸和思维的人所想拥有的一切；我想要的只是一个活着的有呼吸有思维的人都不需要的死亡。死神，我终于接受了你。现在的我，不再是那个蒙懂无知的小孩子了。

那天，我躺在病床上，望着窗外的蓝天白云，想像着窗外的鸟语花香。我告诉自己，我得坚强。蒙田散文集里不是有这样的一句话吗： “人生的价值不在于时间的长短，而是在于我们如何利用时间。人的生命可能很长，但是人生所收获的却很少，能否从生活中得到满足，不在于你生命的长短，而是取决于你的意志。” 死亡，是人毕经的阶段，我无法逃离这样的结局，所以我接受。生命，我仍渴望紧握你的手，为自己，为挚爱，为社会做出贡献。但现在，我唯一能做的，是回到大地母亲的怀抱，不再让爱我的人为我伤心难过。或许我会化为尘土，到世界各地自由翱翔，其实，这岂不也是一种美丽，一种幸福呢? 死神，我想握住你的手，做过最后一段快乐的旅程。

到了天堂，我从星星上眺望，看这世人喝着一碗碗的孟婆汤，忘却孤单，丢掉悲伤。虽然我不想大家忘记我，但我想握紧死亡的双手的我，别无选择。仍拥有生命的眷顾的人们啊！当风吹过你的脸庞时，请想想离你们而去得我吧，因为那轻轻抚摸着你们的脸的春风，就是我给大家的，最衷心的祈祷和祝福。

an essay i wrote. didnt wanna waste it. so put it here lo. lolx. doubt anyone wanna read it anyway.. its purely for my own entertainment. lolx

btw. exams ended. wasting my life away now. lolx. its really cool~ lol

2007-09-30T23:24:00.000+08:00

你有没有过想要做超人的冲动？

像在天上翱翔，无忧无虑，去你想去的地方，做你想做的事情。

会有那么一天吧~ 人类会为自己装上翅膀。那时的天空，还会那么蓝吗？

如果，我有三个愿望，真正的愿望的话。。。 what will i wish for?

.... i'm bored ....

when will the papers end~~~~

one last paper to screw... jia you wang qian~ to all out there who still need to continue this endless fight.. dont give up yeah.. even though it really is tough.. but keep fighting! jia you! (:

2007-09-28T14:25:00.002+08:00

I Believe in You

Lonely
The path you have chosen
A restless road
No turning back
One day you
Will find your light again
Don't you know
Don't let go
Be strong

Chorus

Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you.

Celine Dion

Tout seul
Tu t'en iras tout seul
Coeur ouvert
A L'univers
Poursuis ta quête
Sans regarder derrière
[I Believe In You lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

N'attends pas
Que le jour
Se leve

Suis ton etoile
Va jusqu'où ton reve t'emporte
Un jour tu le toucheras
Si tu crois si tu crois si tu crois
En toi
Suis la lumière
N'éteins pas la flamme que tu portes
Au fonds de toi souviens-toi
Que je crois que je crois que je crois
Que je crois
En toi

All

Someday I'll find you
Someday you'll find me too
And when I hold you close
I'll know that is true

Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe in you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you.

a really nice song

and the lyrics are like so touching~

do you have a person beside you who believes in you truly?

lolx.

2007-09-27T01:17:00.000+08:00

yay~ i officially announce i am well again. HUGE thanks to all who wished me luck and all who hoped i get well soon. they were great help~ i'm really encouraged~ and really touched~ aawwww... you guys make me feel loved~~~ lolx.

anyway. i'm halfway through promos. mugging for math. still have 2 papers left. math and cll paper 2. personally.. i really think i didnt do well for promos. this is a disclaimer. i am NOT TRYING TO B IN ANY WAY MODEST. i am TOTALLY SERIOUS. wang qian is not trying to act guai. i am sincerely lamenting on the fact that i'm not exactly fully prepared this time round. i just know that i could have done better had i not been so sick these few days. come on man.. its the crucial mugging period and i totally missed out on it.. its like. imagine studying with a cracking head. ppl who have experienced it b4 would understand wad i mean.. to put it simply.. its NOT possible. sigh. hence most of the things i need to just depend on daily work le.. hopefully i'll pull through and not be retained. its during these times when i am really thankful for being a scholar.. cuz according to FLS i can just take cll h3 without having to fulfil that 2.4 criteria.. knowing myself.. its totally impossible that i hit the target this time round. sigh. not exactly disappointed lahx. cuz i knew this would happen.. wang qian is seriously so much slacker after jc started.. lolx. as you can see.. wang qian is still blogging when i should totally be mugging math~ lolx. haix.

to all you guys who are in the midst of exams now... or are going to have them soon.. GOOD LUCK~~~ not that it actually work... but maybe it'll reduce the amount of careless mistakes you make during your math paper? lolx. and for those arts students.. may your marker understand your handwriting and appreciate your style~ lolx.

warmest regards~
cheerx!

2007-09-25T19:13:00.000+08:00

I think.. all of us are being too overly engrossed in our own worlds. So much so that we miss out on the feelings of the people around us. Is that an act of selfishness? I think so. Gosh.

2007-09-18T20:45:00.000+08:00

Education Attitdues In School
The Secondary 4 Preliminary Exams have just started, and I already lost faith in what the education system currently stands for. A peek at the mark-list of the students' Mathematics, Social Studies and Chemistry results show that all the innovative teaching methods that my school had bragged and boasted to other schools in our cluster is nothing but a load of bull.I feel sad each morning as I greet my Secondary 4 students, who are still preparing for their remaining papers. I do not wish to spoil their mood by revealing to them how badly they have done as a cohort. My only consolation was that nearly everyone in my own Sec 4 form class passed their Mathematics, even though the distinction rate was pathetic. Given the current state of readiness my students are, it is quite likely that the majority of them will have to sit out the first two months of Junior College next year, and pray hard that their O-level results will save their sorry asses.
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What the hell is wrong with the educational attitudes in school these days? It wasn't like that during my time. Heck, during my student days, the school didn't even believe in preparing us for our graduation exams with series of mock exams and assorted revision programs. After the syllabus was completed, we were left to sink or swim on our own. The only time our teachers turned up in class was because we requested their presence for consultation purposes. In my school right now, we had been busy fire-fighting and re-teaching certain topics, and not to mention mark endless scripts of mock exams to prepare the students for their graduating exams. In return, the students give us utter trash to mark.If anyone is to be blamed for the shitty results, the main culprit are the students themselves. What the hell is wrong with them? There isn't that sense of urgency in them that their exams are around the corner. Some of them don't even give a shit that they are going to fail badly.'So what if I fail my Math or Science? I have a senior who won a scholarship to study ballet in the USA even though she totally screwed up her Amaths.''What's the big deal of getting 40 points for my L1R5 during Prelims? After all, I plan to go Polytechnic, not the junior college.''I don't understand what the teacher is talking about in class. And no, I don't believe in reading up the textbook to clarify my doubts.' (What the fuck? Are you fucking illiterate? You can't even answer simple Chemistry questions that require nothing more than simple memorization from your fucking textbook?? )That is the current prevailing attitude of the graduating students currently. And the scary part is, we aren't exactly the bottom-of-the-barrel type of school.
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A couple of days ago, we had an emergency meeting to discuss the atrocious Math exam results of our students. Many teachers were eager to voice out what was wrong with the system, except me. I felt that there was nothing more to say since management wasn't interested in wanting to deal with the problem of academic weakness. Management is only interested in fire-fighting during exam period. As for the rest of the school year, management shows greater interest in going after performance awards, conducting workshops to brag about its 'superior' teaching methods, and getting students to to engage in attention-seeking project works.Our students shitty results are worrying. This is because the school doesn't believe in taking decisive action early to eradicate a long-term problem. Management believes that all academic problems can be resolved during the intensive 6-8 weeks exam prep program. Hallelujah! At this rate, I can play with my students all year around and only start teaching during the last 6-8 weeks before the O-level exam starts.Why the hell isn't the school taking the weak students more seriously? Why aren't we telling them to either shape up in their studies, or risk getting suspended from all Co-Curricular activities? In my school, we are only taking token effort to help the weak students. Over the five school days each week, three days are reserved for remedial class. And each remedial lesson can only last 1 hour, since students need to spend the next 3 hours on their CCAs.Ask yourself; you are weak in Math. So is the rest of the class of 40 students. Yet, all the school does is give you one extra hour a week for remedial. You want to ask your teacher for help. But your teacher is too busy attending meetings, attending workshops to become an even better teacher, or too busy running a rehearsal for a school event the next week. Great attitude towards education, isn't it?The school is only willing to give you a measly hour a week for Math remedial. But the school can ask you to stay back twice a week, each time 3 hours long into the late evenings for a rehearsal. It kinda tells you where the school's priorities are. And you can't cut back on CCA, 'coz that will directly affect the political influence of the CCA Head-of-Department. The less you do for CCA, the less relevant the CCA Head-of-Department will appear.Basically, the school is more keen on putting up a good show and getting its paperwork in order, than producing actual good results.I didn't wish to express my views during the meeting. I never forgot the fate of loyal mandarins who told the foolish Emperor straight to his face that his empire was falling apart. I just do what I can, shut my mouth, earn my money and enjoy my life after work. Quietly behind the scenes, some of my colleagues and I ignore managements' idiotic orders from time to time and try to save our own classes.
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My school's paperwork is excellent. If you check our students' files, you would have realized that they turn in their homework regularly. The thick files are there to prove that the teachers have covered their asses. But you need to ask yourself, if homework is always turned in promptly, even by the hopeless cases, then why are students still failing so badly for all their subjects?The answer to that question isn't that important. As long as the files are thick, and are labelled systematically enough to please the external Evaluation teams, the management is happy enough. At least they can claim that on paper, all necessary checks and balances are in place. And yes, we will get our own version of the ISO 9000 quality assurance stamp of approval.Our result suck from year to year, and we can get the ISO approval. Kinda tell you that the education attitude in school is really going to the dogs, isn't it?
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For an average school like mine, academic results won't improve until my school starts to focus on improving results. Focus should start when they are in Sec 1, and not fire-fighting two months before the O-level exams begin.Results also won't improve as long as students maintain their lacklustre attitude towards their own future.My boss likes to act fierce. Maybe she should go and scold the students and get them to wake up their bloody idea. Why the hell is she so kind to them? Is this part of the "Love" approach to education, where we do our best to not burst anyone's bubble by telling them that if they don't buck up, they are going to fail?The school is going down the drain. And I suspect, mine isn't the only one.

LOL. COOL POST~ not mine obviously. its by some other blogger. but i tot it was kinda funny. lolx. reminds me of dear old mr brown. kinda cynical.. but kinda true at the same time. lolx.

2007-09-09T00:16:00.000+08:00

suddenly.. i'm being damn nostalgic.. and so not contented with life! gosh. i hate wang qian like that. so emo. someone had said emo-ing is a sign of weakness. think its nicol.. why am i missing ppl all over again~ sigh... maybe bcoz i saw the pictures of ppl in that place bahx. i saw their arts fac photos on someone's blog. shit. i feel the tears comin. stop. i chose my road. i have to take responsibility of my own decisions. and be happy. think mildred told me that. gosh. stop. wang qian. stop.

heard from hg that his bro is in boys home now. for beating ppl up or something.. and he's waiting for his court trial. hope everything's okay. sigh. though i somehow thing that boy deserves it. but.. still... it seems a little surreal....

and py and that person. and yh. and hg. and lm. and.... and everyone else. y is the world so troublesome? *growl*

i'm pissed

confused

can the world stop?

i really need time off

i need to think...

...

pissed

2007-08-26T18:40:00.000+08:00

havent posted for a loooong time again. hence i'm back to spam a little more. lolx. first of all.. HAPPY BDAY GAVIN!! i noe it doesnt feel different to be 17.. but anyway.. hope you enjoyed the partying at least. cheerx to youth! lol

okay.. i really have no idea y i'm here now considering the fact that i have like 4 tests next week. but.. ah well.. to hell with tests. i want my life back. lolx. you noe wadx. ever since i've gone into that place i am in now.. i realised i'm becoming SLACKER!!! yes. you heard it rite frenx. i'm like DUPER slack~ omg. wad has hwa chong done to wang qian?!?! gosh. wad happened to me? where did the organised and hardworking wang qian go?? SAVE ME!! everyone around me is like telling me promos are getter nearer by the second and here i am still wasting me time. gosh. will i get punished for being too slack? i hope not. lolx.

anyway. the main point of mine being here today is to share with you guys an interesting experience.. lolx. i was emcee for singapore rock yesterday.. and it was really cool~~ lolx. its actually sorta like a charity nite thing whereby senior citizens were invited to DANCE!! lolx. damn cool~ you see all the super cute auntie uncle dancing~~~ lolx. but.. sadly.. it rained halfway through and kinda spoilt the whole thing.. for a moment i really tot the whole event will like end when the rain started pouring lahx.. well.. essentially it did.. cuz after that all we could do was to give out some prizes and stuff. the community singing totally sucked can?! cuz the sound system couldnt work.. for the first time in my life i actually hated the rain! gosh. ah well.. but its really cool to meet up with many old frenx. did i mention the event's organised by fiona val and jia xuan? lolx. hence i could do lotsa catching up with the gals~ lolx. thats really nice. and i saw HONG WEI~~~ lol. so cool~~ its lyk ages since i last saw him lahx.. well.. technically i saw him on thurs.. but that didnt count since i didnt get to talk to him cuz i was rushing for guitar lessons.. lolx. anyway. o! and yun hao and claire and thing thing too~~ omg! i love t1~~~ lolx may the 4t1 spirit last forever!!! 3 cheers for t1~~~ (:

o. and not to forget.. i found hong wei's twin!! lolx. come on.. even their names sound alike!! no point denying!! lolx. hong WEI and ye WEI~~ lolx. they SERIOUSLY LOOK ALIKE LAHX!!! but those two guys kept insisting that they didnt. gosh. face up to reality man!! lolx. anyway.. this ye wei guy is the other emcee whos supposed to speak english.. cuz i was doing the chinese part. lolx. but towards the end.. we sorta switched roles for a while.. i ended up speaking el while he took the chinese one.. lolx. just to prove that we are EFFECTIVELY BILINGUAL!! lolx. omg. i sound bhb~ lolx. anyway. it was really fun lahx.. even though i lost my voice after that.. and had to suffer the pains of going on heels from like 11 to 10~ lolx. 11 hours lehx! i broke my record lahx!!

o! that reminds me. i went barefooted for the last part of the night.. WHILE I WAS MC-ING!!! lolx. come on lahx. my feet were killing me can? lolx. come to think of it.. its really embarrassing can?! lolx. but ah well.. nvm. wang qian is not her without her embarrassing moments~ lolx. wo3 ren4 ming4 le4.. lolx. o! but ye wei was really sweet~ he said he didnt mind going barefooted with me~ so nice rite!! hahax. hence i shall send him a warm regard here

ye wei~~ thanks for being such a nice guy!! it was really fun working with you!! you made the event for much more entertaining~~~ lovex!!! rock on kayx~~~

its kinda dumb actually.. since its entirely impossible that he'll see this.. since he doesnt even noe i have a blog. lolx. but nvm. its the tot that counts i guess. lolx.

okok. enough crapping. i really need to get back to my lit.

lovex you guys lotS!!!

2007-08-03T23:07:00.001+08:00

Went to Ares Fac Nite today. Ponned everything else that I needed to do. I know I shouldn’t have done that. But I really couldn’t help it lahx. Its all in the name of FUN!! Lolx. And anyway I doubt I would have completed much today anyway… so… laugh out loud. O! today. Stupid ezra shouted my name and pushed me to go STAMP BALLOONS!!! Yes. You heard it right. BALLOONS!!! I SWEAR this is like the creepiest thing I have ever done lahx! Gosh. I am so gonna hate ezra for this. But never mind. I got my revenge. I think I nearly killed exra just now with all the slaps on the back I gave him.. I’m sure it has to hurt this time. Cuz my hand was stinging all the way throughout the bus ride home… which takes like half and hour lahx! Gosh. I hate ezra. I mean. COME ON LAHZ!!! Anyone I know can straight away tell you that I HATE balloons that bursts. AND ALL BALLOONS BURST!!!!!!! Gosh. And daryl was like helping along lahx. I really pity jian yang ( he was my partner for that game)… think he did all the bursting by himself lahx. All I did was stand there and scream or something. Felt damn retarded. AND THE THING IS WE GOT INTO SECOND ROUND!!!!!! Gosh. Can you believe it?!?! Its like. WTH!!! But the sad thing is. After all the trauma we didn’t manage to win it. Just one more balloon lehx. Sigh. Wasted my efforts. Lolx. But ah well. Nvm. I think I got a little less wary of those bloody balloons after today. Gosh. Horrors of horrors. Lolx. Never mind. I shall be kind and benevolent about it. I HAVE A BIG HEART!!! I SHALL FORGET ABT THIS!!! THIS BLOODY INCIDENT NEVER HAPPENED!!! Lolx.

Anyway. DT and YG performed today lehx~~ with Melvin and DT’s fren and Jenson. Lolx. Cool man. I thought their gig was not bad lorhx. I mean. The chorus was good wadx. Just that the mic was too soft. Which was not even their fault lahx! Lolx. Hence. DT YG and MELVIN~~~ WELL DONE!!! LOVE YA GUYS!! YOU GUYS ROCKED!!! ITS OKAY!! JIA YOU!!!! J lolx. And reuben and tobias’ bands played too. They were all really good lahx. Gosh. So pro. I thnk all of them really made the place damn high. Lolx. And tobias’ actions were damn funny. Lolx. Ahhhh~~~ I’m HIGH~~ lolx

O~ and not forgetting casey and ezra’s fac dance which started the whole event. Looks really nice… but the interesting thing is that I saw zhu hao performing lahx. Which is quite surprising. Cuz you don’t usually see him so active in dance mahx. So I though it was worth mentioning. Really hope for the best between him and her. Sigh. Plus oil you two. Please come out of this hullabaloo stronger than before. Take carex~~ love ya ppl~~

Ah well. I think I’ve cooled down. Really need to go practice guitar nowx. If not on Sunday think Jacob will totally kill me lahx. Or worse. He’ll gimme that killer stare!! Gosh. Shudder shudder!!!

Lots of love.
qian

2007-06-19T21:18:00.000+08:00

hey guys~~ so sorry the photos took so long~ i was....... lazy (read busy). lolx. anyway. here they are~ enjoy! (:

btw. i wanna add that i had a great time that day. hope you guys did as well. it helps us remember those days.

NEVER FORGET 4T1 2006!!!!

love ya guys!

GAL POWER!!!

stupid fiona!! lolx. never mind. i noe i'm cute. you are just jealous! muahahahax! [absorbed in self fantasies~]

we'll miss you marcus!

this person i'll forever remember for his DISTURBANCE TO MY LIFE!!! IF NEXT TIME I GOT LOTS OF WRINKLES MUST B CUZ OF HIM!!! IRRITATING BOY!! lolx. but never mindx. we still love u willy BOOOOOO~ lolz.

dont you just love us? lolx. too bad not all of us are here. ):

so serious. gals one nicer! lolx

i think his tan is really nice now. lolx. looks like his appetite grew together with his age~ lolx.

cheez~~

see what i mean? irritating~ lolx

cheez again~~

talking to galfren!!! lolx. caught in the act~

they look REALLY engaging dun you think. lolx

i think this expression damn classic. muahahahahx. sorry py~ lol

AND NOW FOR THE GRAND FINALE~~~ CLASS PHOTO!!! lol

it isnt exactly well taken. that ang mah gal dunno how to take photo one. lolx. but anyway. its good enough. check out all the smiles. excluding sean chua. who was kinda mourning. but its okay. lets be nice and excuse him this once. lolx. HA! to those who didnt make it. TOO BAD! BETTER COME NEXT TIME!! lolx. have fun. i noe block test or common test or midterm exams or wadeva your school calls it is coming up. but its okay. we have the true T1 spirit. i'm sure all you guys and gals out there will do really well~ best of luckx yah? lolx. not that you guys need it. but its okay. lolx. omg. i'm really crappy! okok. i shall stop.

sorry again for taking so long with the photos.

and to those who bothered to read till this part. pls wish me good luck back. i need it lots! still got a lot haven touch yet. okok. needa go hit the books le.

LOL (lots of LOVE!!!)

qian

2007-06-02T13:10:00.000+08:00

You Are a Lemon Cake

Strong, sexy, and overpowering.
You know who you are, and you're not afraid to show the world your fabulous self.
You're confident, charming, and extremely popular.

What Kind of Cake Are You?

quite sad.. i wanted to be a black forest or something.. tastes nicer.. lolx

2007-06-02T13:00:00.000+08:00

cool man! lolx. i'm an ACE!! lolx.. ppl~~ go try this out and tell me wad you are.. lolx. or are everyone aces? lol

You Are the Ace of Diamonds

You are a lucky person, and you always seem to find yourself surrounds by pretty, shiny things.You have a knack for success and money - though your skills can't really be learned or taught.
You shine in a room, and you a have a truly sparkling personality.A true extrovert, you always are able to share a witty joke or the latest scandalous gossip.
While you do have an eye for bling, you are also quite generous.A lot of wealth and luck comes your way. And you're not afraid to pass it on.
A gamble you should take: Sports betting
Your friends would describe you as: Captivating
Your enemies would describe you as: Greedy
If you lived in Vegas, you would be: A trophy wife or husband

http://www.blogthings.com/whatplayingcardareyouquiz/">What Playing Card Are You?

2007-05-12T16:41:00.000+08:00

another random email to fill this page.. lolx. i swear i'll find some time to change my blogskin.. sigh.. lolx. lazy me..

Read Carefully and Understand the Meanings:

Nobody is perfect
until you fall in love with them.

Love starts with a smile,
grows with a kiss,
and ends with a tear.

Don't cry over anyone
who won't cry over you.

What do you do
when the only person
who can make you stop crying
is the person who made you cry?

If love isn't a game,
why are there so many players?

Good friends are hard to find,
harder to leave,
and impossible to forget.

You can only go as far as you push!

Actions speak louder than words.

The hardest thing to do
is watch the one you love,
love somebody else.

Don't let the past hold you back,
you're missing the good stuff.

Life's short.

If you don't look around once in a while
you might miss it.

A best friend is like a four leaf clover,
hard to find and lucky to have.

Some people make the world special by just being in it.

Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.

When it hurts to look back,
and you're scared to look ahead,
you can look beside you
and your best friend will be there.

True friendship never ends.

Friends are forever.

Good friends are like stars....
you don't always see them,
but you know they are always there.

Don't frown,
you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

Everything is okay in the end.

If it's not okay, then it's not the end.

Most people walk in and out of your life,
but only friends leave footprints in your heart.

If u love something...
let it go.

If it comes back to you
its yours....
If it doesn't then it never was.

A kiss is just a kiss
until u find the one you love.

A hug is just a hug
until its from the one ur thinking of.

A dream is just a dream
until u make it come true.

LOVE is just a word until its proven 2 u.

Remember, every minute spent angry is sixty seconds of happiness wasted.

damn corny.. lolx. what has gotten into me??

rewatching 恶作剧之吻 these days.. yes yes. i am very slack. lolx. well. i just got sick of studying wadx.. lolx. anyway.. its really very nice can! lolx. ahhhhh~~ i love corny taiwan 偶像剧!! lolx

2007-05-05T14:15:00.000+08:00

LEO - The Lion Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.

got this from py's blog.. a bit...... not true.. lolx. but i'm perfectly okay with the really good at almost anything part.. MUAHAHAHAX~ lolx..

2007-04-29T14:58:00.000+08:00

hey ppl out there~
long time since i posted something.. so i decided to come here and slack off a bit.. life is kinda normal nowadays.. nothing too exciting happening thats worth mentioning abt.. other than the fact that we went for faculty outing yesterday with the whole of ares fac(most of them anyway..)

it was kinda like a memorable night cuz dantong felt stressed out by the fac princess thing.. hence kind little me took her place and then... sigh.. you can think of the rest.. casey was the prince that night. he had to do a lot of stupid things with me.. feel damn apologentic.. lolx. there was this game which he had to piggy back me~ i wonder why his back was intact after the whole thing since i'm like super heavy~ gosh. sorry casey(if you even see this that is.. lolx) min zhi was like saying she feel so relieved not to be class princess. and i was like.. sigh. thanks arhx~ lolx. o~ one thing.. i think casey bit himself while eating the pear during one of the games.. lolx. poor thing.. and i think i hit my front teeth on his while passing the grapes too.. lolx. casulties.. once again.. i sincerely apologise to casey~ SORRY~~~ lolx.

but ah well.. at least that was a night to remember.. o! and i was reminiscing the old times with anita that night too.. since both of us were princesses that night.. so we had lotsa time together.. then we were like complaining abt the stunts we had to do as well as talking abt 4t1 and hc.. blah blah blah.. i love gals talk~ lolx.. but it also made me miss 4t1 all over again..

ahhhh~~~ a big shout out to bukit panjang government high school class of 4t1/2006 (aka 4t1-ed).. lets go out for class outing during the hols want? more mahjong cum bridging cum cycling sessions!!! lolx. and btw.. you guys wanna go back bp to watch cheering com finals? considering the fact that we were once the champions of cheering competitions.. should we be kind enough to grace the occasion? muahahahax~

o yah! i wanna thank ezra too.. if he sees this.. lolx. thanks for lompang-ing me home.. i owe you 30 cents taxi fare~ lolx

alas.. due to all the hullabaloo abt the fac outing.. as well as the pottery lessons the day before.. all my sense of timing went haywire~ resulting in the sad fact that i TOTALLY forgot abt my GUITAR LESSONS~~~ sigh. i think i'm pathetic lahx. i mean.. why do i ALWAYS forget to practice~ gosh. i hate myself for this. then today when i went to guitar lessons then i think my teacher got damn pissed off with me.. but hes still nice enough to not scold me lahx. gosh. THANK YOU TONS JACOB!!!

okok. enough of crapping le. i need to go write my c lit compo le. ahhhhhh.. lazy to write~~ sigh

ah well.. joy to the world ppl~ jia you

love
qian

2007-04-22T22:45:00.000+08:00

hey fellow a01-ers~~~ i'm REALLY sorry abt this.. i couldnt access my frenster.. something went wrong either with my com or with frenster~~ and after that i had a weekful of tests.. life has been a hell of a mess... thats why these photos took so long~~ i'm sincerely sorry!! but knowing you guys.. i'm sure you dun mind.. cuz you guys are NICE PPL!!
lolx

anyway
here they are~

yay~~~ A01-ers FOREVER!!!

alright! there you are.. there are a few more.. but they didnt turn out too well.. so i didnt bother loading them.. lolx. but anyway.. like i always say.. the essence is there.. may the a01 spirit run on forever! and dun you guys DARE forget me! lolx.

lotsa love
qian

2007-04-18T21:24:00.000+08:00

the green line gang~ lolx

2007-03-26T22:43:00.000+08:00

yes yes ppl~ i have updated! lolx. y is everyone so surprised when i update?! and mildred.. you'll get it one day.. when you start getting sick of your blog then you'll realise its quite sian to type out everything actually.. lolx

okok. in response to vanessa's question.. hc is OK.. second intakers have the privilege of bypassing a lot of tests.. which is a great thing considering i never actually got any info into my brain during pae.. otherwise.. the bad part is.. everyone knows everyone else.. the good part is.. at least my class is not all that unwelcoming. and yes. hc food SUCKS! which explains why we usually go to the high school canteen to eat whenever we have the time..

you know wad.. i was blogsurfing with joan today in the library.. and we chanced upon beiru's blog.. and we saw all the photos.. and we got really emo all over again.. i realised one thing.. being apart really makes us all very fond of reminiscing.. but i guess a01 shall always be a01. i'm just really proud that i'm part of it!

went to checkout mildred's present today and i realised its really super hard to find anything for her.. things that must fit her taste.. which until now i dun really understand yet.. and things that are affordable.. and things that are practical enough.. sigh.. thats the problem when you wanna get presents for ppl.. THERE's SO MUCH TO CONSIDER!! lolx. exasperated! lolx. but dun worry mildred.. we'll get you something by hook or by crook! lolx.

and i went coronation with shaun today too.. for no reason.. i was simply kinda dragged there after class cuz me joan and megan met him on our way out and i was the only one there with nothing on after that.. so ya. i realised running for council in hc is SCARY!! he's paying like 50 plus bucks just for GIMMICKS!! gosh.. and furthermore there's posters and other stuff. gosh. so scary. no wonder they say independant school ppl are rich.. ( me feeling myself shrinking by these's ppl's mere buying/spending power) lolx.

ok. i got nothing else to crap abt le lahx.. o! i remember.. i'm supposed to write a mini thesis aka novel kinda thing for clep (chinese language elective programme).. so if you guys out there have ANY idea at all as to how the plot should go.. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE drop me a message~ or just leave a comment.. or TAG if you have to.. but ya.. i'm despo. lolx. thank you~

to everyone out there whom i sorely miss ( a01 and 4t1.. and everyone else.. you noe who you are)...

I LOVE YOU!!

2007-03-19T21:21:00.001+08:00

i shall update my blog today since i'm kinda free... hmmm.. but i have nothing to say~~ lolx
i am lame
sharks.. my msn got problem lehx! always cannot sign in one. sad. lolx
anyway.. today was kinda relieving.. in a sense that.. at least now i can safely say that my class for the 2 years ahead will definately be less intimidating than i thought.. i dunno any of the new ppl much yet.. so i cant sae whether they're all nice not.. lolx. but at least first impressions wise i really find them quite cool.. but sadly.. sitting in hwa chong canteen today made me miss o7a01 (pae) tons.. i suddenly went all sentimental inside.. thinking about the good old days when we used to sit together at the a01 table to talk about NOTHING at all.. lolx. times when we bitched abt ourselves.. times when we went all the way to marina square to sit at the food court ( thats where all the cool kids hang out man! ).. sigh.. regardless of how cool my new class is.. i guess a01 will forever b a part of me.. :)

a01-ers~~ LOVE YA!!!

2007-03-19T21:21:00.000+08:00

2007-03-06T19:51:00.000+08:00

very long never post le.. i think its time i did something abt my blog.. so here i am.. lolx
i lazy to add the other random things in my life le lahx. so i shall just talk about wad happened today. yesterday is history anyway. no point dwelling on them...
today is officially our last day of PAE. i must say.. pae in nj is a once in a lifetime experience.. thank you 07A01!!! you guys are the BEST!! really~ i mean.. its only been 10 weeks essentially, but you guys all left important footprints in my life.. and for that.. i'm thankful! i noe i sound emo.. but i cant help it.. i really love my class loads..

this morning i left for school and i was telling myself i must be happy with whichever place i'm going to.. but in the end.. i still cried in front of my class.. so embarrassing.. sigh.. i cant bare to leave!! and can you imagine~ only 11 out of the 28 of us staying lahx.. GOSH! nj is totally biased! they only gave us 40 slots lorhx! sigh.. i keep telling myself i'm just a road away.. but still.. very sad~~~ i'm so gonna miss them..

the thing is.. i'm sad wherever i am.. cuz if i'm in hwa chong.. i'll feel sad abt missing out on LEP.. but the frens in nj are invaluable too! sigh. contradictions. i swear i'm gonna go back for the dance night on thursdae. think the whole class is gonna go back to repeat the SHOWER DANCE!! lolx. we will ROCK THE HOUSE DOWN!!

anyway.. my whole class pon-ned every lesson today.. except lorraine and sebastian.. lolx.. cuz they are too nice to leave the teachers alone by themselves.. lolx. and guess wad.. PHOON YU never come today! gosh. at least my last day in nj was miraculously peaceful.. but i have a strange feeling that i might even miss his presence~ since he provides so much entertainment.. lolx. gosh. i shall not continue with this sinful topic. lolx
yah.. i was going to say.. we went to beautyworld to play pool instead.. while some simply left for home.. really fun actually.. its my first time playing lorhx. then i realised it was such a challenging game.. lolx. and wan zhen they all very pro! lolx. so in the end.. i sat with mark and alan to watch the latter teach the first how to play guitar instead.. its like newtons fourth law.. guitar simply poses an attractive force towards wang qian. i tend to levitate towards it most of the time.. lolx. which reminds me.. i haven practice my pieces yet.. opps.. lolx. but anyway.. i realised alan is such a good player! he can simply play some piece without the scores.. simply cook up some chords and it sounds so smooth!! GOSH! he's a genius! lolx..
and.. after that.. we went to pig out at mac's.. as usual.. cuz no $$$.. lolx. then some more separated from the group.. some went home.. some left for cca back in school.. lolx. 8 of us went to beiru's house to play~ i must say.. her house is very PRETTY!! lolx. and her dog is SUPER CUTE!! and a bit hyper active.. lolx. anyway.. we had a great time with mahjong and bridge! super fun! i got so addicted to everything lahx. gosh. lolx. and xiao xuan was totally LOUD!! she's like SUPER ENTERTAINING! lolx.. but i sorta need to do an ear checkup now.. i think i have gone deaf! lolx.

and i thought i should leave something like that as a tribute to my 10 weeks in the beloved NJ~

THINGS I'LL DEFININTELY REMEMBER FOR PAE:
0] sitting on a different bus so early in the morning for the first time in 4 years
1] first time stepping into nj and being greeted by strange grey ppl with red bands on their hands
2] feeling outcasted wearing your own school u for the first time in a whole new environment
3] being made to climb all the way up from the grandstand to the canteen early in the morning
4] being greeted by a swarm of greys
5] checking our OGs and screaming across the canteen to see if any of your frens went to the same og as you
6] going into the hall for the first time
7] michell puking in the hall and me givin her my beloved snoopie tissue
8] going through all the talks for the first 3 days and nearly dying from them
9] skipping all the introductory lessons
10] first OG outings together
11] being separated into classes again after the first 3 days
12] being introduced to 07A01 (OG 1)
13] not being able to find the line at first
14] the walk-in by every house
15] the unforgetable orientation we had (need i elaborate?)
16] jafnie, bernice, carmen, chantelle
17] the DANCE PARTY!!
18] our mass (mess) dances ( which i still haven quite figured out yet)
19] the SHOWER DANCE
20] ice cream at ESTIVO ( first class outing)
21] lessons proper ( the sleeping times)
22] stacy tan and econs lectures ( the ultimate bore)
23] class lunch at FOOD COURT in MARINA SQUARE!!
24] STONING SESSIONS
25] bitching about ourselves
26] going for bonding sessions with the gossip gang
27] screaming when we see each others lollipops
28] talentime and sebastians performance
29] chinese new year and cecilias performance
30] xiao xuan and her injuries
31] pigging out in the canteen
32] the un-remember-able college anthem
33] the nice sounding college song
34] the very nice sounding arieus song
35] the many many cheers
36] SQUARE nj
37] the addictive BEE BEE
38] bubble tea
39] all the orientations of CCAs i went to
40] debate
41] guitar
42] desmond ( my angel )
43] hui ling ( my mortal )
44] 06A01
45] squeezing together in the canteen
46] everything else that slipped my mind momentarily.. but that does NOT mean they are not important to me..

and most of all

mildred with all her blue hotness and her incredible long experience in ballet
cecilia and her ah ma actings with her unimaginable ability to sleep in seconds
claire amanda lopez and her cool cool princess-y movements
michell and her cooooooooold jokes
sophia and her ask cute ppl for number debacle and her position in the dumb dumb club
hui ping and her terra
mei yan and her slow-ness
qiu yi and her wxyz
beiru and her dog and mahjong!!
xiao xuan and her unbelievable voice that can be heard miles away
xiao fang and her weird timetable
vanessa and her emo-ness and her CIDish ic
wan zhen and her colourful hairclips
lorraine and her obsession for dumplings
felicia and fuzzy wuzzy
rachel shong and her nice-ness (good wife!) and her cool cool ambition
ashna and her bim-tai-bo-ism
rachel chew and her love for her dance ppl
joan and her talent for drawing
wani and her constant laughter spanning for dunno how long
lex and his NAME and his birthday and simply the way he puts things so hilariously
sebastion and his drums!
alan and his talent in guitar
tiong hui and his shaking of leg
mark and his constant pulling of his sideburn
timothy and his declaration that he is a GUAI ( obedient ) child
and MOST of all..

PHOON YU~~~
just for being the super glue that further jelled 07ao1 together as one
YOU are the PRIDE OF OUR CLASS~

lol.. i'm mean.. but seriously..

a big thanks to everyone i know in nj! you guys ROCK MY SOCKS! lolx. i LOVE EVERYONE OF YOU! must remember me ok.. <3

2006-12-19T23:35:00.000+08:00

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:
You have high extroversion.You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"
Conscientiousness:
You have medium conscientiousness.You're generally good at balancing work and play.When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.
Agreeableness:
You have high agreeableness.You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.
Neuroticism:
You have low neuroticism.You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.
Openness to experience:
Your openness to new experiences is high.In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

2006-01-24T13:34:00.000+08:00

well.. life is sian as always.. ran five rounds for pe todae lehx.. sometimes i wonder what i am thinking when i'm running.. seems so impossible i can run so much.. i mean.. think about it lahx.. i must admit that i have not actually worked out throughout the holidays.. then now suddenly have to run so much. moreover.. i'm also not very fit kind lahx.. judging from my size.. sigh.. never mind.. JIA YOU BAHX!!!
got back most of the papers le... well.. wad can i sae.. normally ppl will write sae they did badly.. just because they are too modest.. sigh.. how i wish i can sae that.. well.. i cant.. but yah.. up till now.. when have i ever been modest before.. lolx.. forget it lahx.. see open le.. lol
now typing in com lab again.. as always.. never mind..
o yah.. cny coming up le.. v nice.. gonna catch up on my work now.. lol...

2005-11-21T15:44:00.000+08:00

sigh.. i'm SIAN!!!!! i dunno wadx the problem of me.. i'm officially sufferring from PMS!!! I'm SIAN~~~~ sobx... i have no idea wad i'm doing lorx.. secretly using richard lim's laptop to type this thing.. and yet i have nothing to type.. yet still i am still typing too much. so whats my problem.. sigh.. i'm crappy~~~ okok.. i have a feeling limin is going to burst any moment.. wow~~~ so.. i guess.. wow...
hai guang and limin is now having a dark quarrel.. why am i here?? why am i on EARTH???? can i just... DISAPPEAR!!!
limin has officially burst-ed.. fine.. what now... what else can happen??? WHAT!!!!!!!

2005-10-20T13:39:00.000+08:00

hahahahahax.. i have no idea why i did this great for my exams.. officially got all my Cs and Bs.. so happi~~~ lolx.. sigh.. i'm still sian.. again.. sigh.. we'll be getting our report books on friday.. wad to do?? i'm LAN~~~ i have no idae wad happened.. maybe something happened to mi.. as in.. my life took an unreasonable turn.. wads going on??? sigh.. maybe its my problem lah.. i'm FAR TOO SLACK!!!

2005-09-28T14:11:00.000+08:00

i'm sian~~~ so long never blog le.. one month le lehx.. lol.. in the computer lab one now typing for the sake of typing.. furthermore tomorrow start tests le lehx..sigh.. wad to do?? I'M STRESSED~!!! how!!! i think i'm mentally unsound lehx!! DARN~~

2005-08-20T15:40:00.000+08:00

I am a Leo. (Also known as "Lion") My Horroscope starts like this:
" From the early age, Leos are inclined towards drunkennes and extortion. When it comes to anything else, they show a remarkable degree of laziness. As a child, a Leo will typically demand a lot of money from parents, then from friends and even casual aquaintances. " (Read more Find yours)

lolx.. back from camp.. OBS RULEZ!!! it was so darn fun lorhx.. i mean.. sigh.. i miss outward bound.. anything and everything that belongs to it!!! SOBX~~~ i wanna go back lehx.. sigh.. i was in the same watch as hz hui ping teck liang ying zi evonne pei ling cindia zayanah zakiah aisyah shuwei wandi hisham shazly and kenneth kee.. lolx.. i didnt know those peeps can be so interesting.. i love obs.. sigh.. came back now and feel so empty.. didnt know my life is so sian one.. everydae just eat sleep and do work onli.. obs is so fulfilling.. i think i learnt a lot lorx.. sigh.. i miss obs.. i miss CHU AI~~~ SOBX~~~~~

got darn tanned after the camp.. hz sae i look like fried chicken now.. lolx.. i agree wif him lehx.. so dark now.. v nice.. i like getting tanned.. shows i got exercise.. muahahahax.. (even though my weight doesnt show it.. lolx) and yah.. i thought obs will help mi jian dei de.. but now.. i dun think it worked.. lolx.. but i made a lot of new friends lahx.. i think thats the cool thing..

the thing i remember most should be the two expeditions we had bahx.. both are super mentally and physically draining one lorx.. so funny.. i love the sae ex and hate the land ex.. cuz during the land ex everyone was not in good mood.. cuz of the amount of stuff we had to carry stole away all our energy.. then everyone was kinda hot tempered.. so very scary lahx.. but the sea expedition was different.. cuz everyone was in good mood now.. hahax.. then very fun.. my partner was shu wei.. he rocks lorhx.. i think whole way is he paddle one lehx.. i dun think i got help lorx.. he was the one pushing the kayak forward.. all i did was rudder.. lolx.. but hey.. i very nu li also one you know.. i rudder until i got 4 plasters stuck on my hands now lehx.. poor thing right?? hahax.. sigh.. nothing much left to write le.. just that.. i really gained a lot from obs.. all you ppl out there who deciding whether or not to go.. PLEASE!! no matter how scary it sounds to you.. JUST GO!!! it will really do you TONS OF GOOD!! hahax..

i realised again how much teamwork, tolerance, confidence, time managent and keeping faith in everything you do means to a bunch of ppl.. not forgetting leadership lahx.. its really important de!!!

you can only find new land if you dare to lose sight of the shore

once again.. may ther be joy in the world.. lolx.. love ya ppl~

2005-08-10T13:22:00.000+08:00

girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said...no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever....and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said.... You're not pretty you're beautiful. I dont want to be with you forever. I NEED to be with you forever. And I wouldnt cry if you walked away...I'd die...
damn sweet right?? sigh.. lolx... T1 GOT THE CHAMPION FOR CHEERING COMPETITIONS 2005!!!!!!!!! YAHOO!!!!!!!! lolx.. cant believe it seriously.. i thought P1 would win.. but in the end.. hmm.. maybe cuz lye ee's too good~~~ I LOVE t1... i mean.. everyone turned up lorx.. without anyone forcing them to lehx.. i thought it was impossible.. but in the end... WOW~~~ lolx... sigh..
we are having a math re-common test tomorroe.. which is in fact.. ahem.. MY BIRTHDAE!!! ARGHHHH!!! how can i have such downright LOUSY luck!!! but anyhow.. went shooping with my mum yesterdae and got this whole TON of stuff FOC!!! i got a new sling bag, a new pencilcase from nici.. (veli cute.. its all furry..).. a new set of vcds to watch(tian guo de jie ti.. some korean drama).. a new belt( v nice.. its dark green.. v cool :P) and a new notebook and a few novels to add to my collection and my mum promised me new wallet and new shoes somemore.. NICE RIGHT!!! lolx.. so nice right?? my birthdae mahx.. hahax.. and now.. i think i shall return to my a math le.. i swear i shall force myself to work so that i wont fail again.. and i swear i shall finiah my work asap... so that i can go buy new cds later(paid by my mum again..MUAHAHAHAHAX!!!) lolx...
ps. i wanna go swimming!! LoLx..

2005-07-18T16:40:00.000+08:00

sigh.. so long never blog le.. no time lahx.. also too sian to blog.. cuz not much happenin these daes.. i still got loads of stuff left undone.. but i dun feel like doin them.. so.. sigh.. cheers ppl~ i still love the world.. lolx.. oh yah.. 45th anniversary's over.. so i bet co shouldnt be that tiring anymore bahx.. lets pray.. hahax.. and i bought harry potter.. its SICK!!! cuz my favorite dumbledore died~~ SOB!!! sigh.. dunno lahx.. joy to the world still bahx.. cya~

You're A Midsummer Night's Dream!
Shakespeare wrote this romantic comedy to show that
"love hath no law but his own." The
story of young lovers being toyed with by
forest sprites is purely an entertaining
fantasy, neither realistic nor tragic, and a
popular drama the world over.

2005-06-26T05:45:00.000+08:00

LOL~~~ i'm back ppl.. got miss me not.. aiyah.. confirm got one lahx.. lolx.. I CANT EXPLAIN HOW EXCITING THINGS WERE!!! OMG!!! lolx.. i LOVE THE WORLD!!! yah.. but i didnt buy anything for anyone.. so.. ppl.. STOP ASKING ME FOR STUFF!!! hahax.. sorry lahx.. i didnt have enough time to buy.. no time to shop lahx.. i was too busy going here and there.. really.. i had a HELL of FUN!!! hahax... but the onli drawback was that i came home TOTALLY sunburnt.. hahax.. but never mind.. i got darker.. thats good.. hahax.. then horx.. i got to know this super cute guy from shuqun sec.. funny guy.. got to know him from the trip.. nice right.. and oh yah.. i saw this couple.. old couple mind you.. they are SUPER POWER i tell you.. guess wad the old ah peh calls his wife... AH GAL!!! OMG!!! i mean.. pls lorx.. and some more they go out shopping got hold hands one lehx.. like WOW!!! so incredible.. they are UNBELIEVABLE okie!!! hahax.. but never mind.. i like.. hahax.. i mean.. so romantic right.. hahax.. and somemore ho.. this trip got this person who told me he like me.. sigh.. i shall not tell you ppl who.. lolxx.. GUESS BAHX!!! MUAHAHAHAX!!!
its the second last dae of the hoildaes.. no.. actually its already the last dae of holidaes le.. its officially 5am in the morning and i haven had any wink of sleep yet.. but i'm not sleepy.. so i think i wouldnt be sleepin tonight le bahx.. hahax.. i dun mind.. very long never had a second of peace for myself le.. hahax.. but i dun think i'll have any todae either lahx.. cuz i still rushin through my work.. SOBX!!! still have ermx... 300000 things left?? or more?? i lost count.. hahax.. okie i admit i'm a weeeee bit exeggeratin lahx.. i still got ss and chinese and chemistry.. which is still a lot lorx.. hahax.. intending to finish my ss essay todae.. can de.. so easy essay.. crap can le.. i mean.. i not even sure whether we will get a teacher.. since emily tang left.. sigh.. i think i'll miss her lehx.. cuz she very chio.. hahax.. sigh.. I WANNA GO SWIMMIN!!! hahax.. dunno why.. these daes i love the pool A LOT lorx.. hahax.. cuz its FUN!! can get tan.. hahax.. okie.. i siao le.. lolx.. suffering from lack of sleep.. but i'm so weird.. i'm getting more and more awake by the second.. hahax.. nvm.. i am officially crazy.. i miss the trip.. i wanna go back.. sigh.. todae evelyn come back le.. gald she's safe.. cuz i saw news hong kong got flood.. then very glad she came back safe and sound.. tomorrow have to go teach hai guang a math.. sigh.. dunno lahx..
these few daes very crazy over one song..

Collide
by Howie Day

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

this song really very nice.. listenin to it now.. luv it.. hahax.. qian.. jia you bahx.. i luv myself!!! hehehe.. and once again.. i sign off.. may there be joy to the world!!

2005-06-11T21:04:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!!!!!! i'm officially bloggin using the airports computers!!! MUAHAHAHAX!!! so SHUANG!!! few minutes from now i'll be gone ppl~~~ Dun miss me too much.. lolX.. the airport keyborad so hard to press one.. lolXX. . and onli restrict ppl to 15 minutes per person.. so stingy.. as if a lot of ppl wanna use their computer like that.. hahahahahaaaaz... i am officially siao le.. LIFE RAWKX!!!! aeroplanes RAWK my world!!! lolXX.. CYA PPL!!!!

ok.. i'm back.. i realised one thing.. computers are dead.. humans are smarter than computers.. i officially just cheated the com into givin me another 25 minutes.. wonder wad i should do now.. maybe play neopets bahx.. muahahahahax.. JOY TO THW WORLD!!! i am OFF!!!!!!! BYE~~~~~~

2005-06-09T01:30:00.000+08:00

lolx.. bloggin again.. went out wif pei yi todae.. took neoprintx.. SO NICE~~ lolx.. and bought 2 necklace.. one is a wooden dragonfly.. super NEAT!!! and the other one is black.. a bit like those kinda pebbles.. feels cool.. hahax.. veli high.. i'm countin down to the daes i'll finalli be OUT of singapore.. so happi.. I MISS CHINA!!! i'm lyk FINALLY going back.. i miss china's AIR!!! the pure sense of belonging when you finally step onto that huge piece of beautiful land.. the scent of the soil there just blows you away.. i LOVE that place.. i cant wait.. can i leave lyk now or something.. hahax.. but the trip would be really hectic lahx.. haf 2 visit a huge number of places within a VERY short time frame.. cuz i onli going back for a week this time.. all my mum's fault.. and mi dad's.. cuz they too busy.. then no time bring mi back.. SOB!!! actually i seriously have no idea why i lyk china so much.. maybe becoz all my memories there were so pure and innocent.. just plain BLISS.. i mean.. i was onli there until 5 lorx.. its lyk.. how complicated can a 5 year old kid get rite.. thats why.. all the memories were so sweet.. not like in sing.. the complications.. the faces.. the masks.. the terror.. the anger.. and the pain.. everythin.. how i wish i can go back to china for good.. then i can start all over.. lyk hardly anyone knows me there.. other than that handful.. but even then they dun know how i've been in sing.. so i dun have to pretend in front of them.. no expectations to live up to.. i can just do wad i want.. laugh when i want to.. cry when i cant stand the pain.. in here i cant.. keep havin the feelin that i dun belong.. sometimes there's even this sense of inferity.. just cuz in you boils a totally different kinda blood.. i am DIFFERENT.. but hey.. i cant deny.. i LOVE being different.. lolx.. i'm PROUD to be who i am.. hahax..
one reason why i particularly liked that dragonfly necklace.. because its wooden.. becoz it;s handmade.. its so exquisite.. it looks as if its flyin.. it looks so free.. suddenly realised i had been slackin the whole of the holidaes.. realised i cant work without stress.. sigh.. thats why i'm a pure I.. hahax.. read this story.. wrote it and cried.. its stupid.. you write it and you cry becoz you wrote it.. hahax..

便条上的故事
很早，他就和她同厂，他是三班倒的工作，她也是，一个月里，只有几天能轮在一个时间段上休息。刚结婚，厂里没房子，住的是集体宿舍一间极小的房子，卫生间、厨房都是公用的。他早上8点半下班，她8点已经去上班，他回到家桌子上有一张便条：馒头在锅里，趁热吃，抓紧时间休息。下面落的是她的大名。揭开锅盖，馒头还热着。下午6点半，她下班，他已经走了，桌子上的老地方又有一张便条：晚餐是大饼和粥，还有一碟腐乳，一定要吃完，我去菜市场买菜了。后面是他的姓名。一个钟头后，他回来了，手里拎着蔫蔫的蔬菜。“很宜”。他说完，急匆匆穿上那件蓝色的劳动工作服上班去了。这一天，见面只有两分钟。添了三个孩子，终于分到一套带厨房的一室一厅，卫生间和洗涮的水龙头仍是公用的，很满足了。仍是三班倒的工作，孩子是大的带小的，她早上8点半下班，他怕孩子们把便条拿来折纸飞机，于是把便条留在碗厨顶上：锅里有煮好的甜酒粥，吃了就休息。我已给大娃说好，让他带弟弟妹妹出去玩。大娃是他们的大孩子。下午6点半，他下班，饭桌上只有二娃、三娃在等他。他知道，她一定是趁菜市收摊去买廉价的菜。果真，一会儿大娃抱着一堆蔬菜，还有几只小鸡回来，说妈妈上班去了，拿出妈妈用一张报纸边匆匆写的便条：这几只小母鸡养大后就可以少买鸡蛋了。落款仍是她的大名。一晃，孩子们都张大成家了，他和她几十年的三班倒，也终于到了尽头。退休后的生活虽然可以天天见面，但却更忙了，因为添了三个孙子。一早，她和一堆老大妈们去锻炼身体，回来时做早餐，把孙子送到学校上课，接着去赶早市买最新鲜的蔬菜。他醒来，冰箱上有张便条：高压锅里有鸡血粥，听说可以治肺病，你多吃点。他很听话的喝完了鸡血粥，然后留张便条，就慢慢逛到花鸟市场。她回来，习惯地看一眼冰箱，上面有张条：我逛花鸟市场了，中午晚点回来，你先吃，别等我。果真，下午1点，他才逛回来。手里拿着从乡下郎中那里买的治她关节炎的草根根…… 秋冬之季，他去菜市场时突发脑溢血而逝，非常突然。一辈子，他走哪里都要留张便条给她，这一次，他却没来得及告诉她一声。四天四夜，她都想不通，第五天，孩子们喊她吃饭，却发现，她睡在床上已经仙逝了。在他们老式的衣柜里，满满一大袋的便条，什么样的纸张，什么样的形状都有，淡淡的，都是些琐碎的事，一张张看完，让人泪流满面。

i think.. thats true love.. when you dun even have to show it anymore.. when two ppl dun have the slightest doubt of each other's feelings.. when even if one dae you just see him for two minutes and yet you know that he loves you.. and you cant help but just think of him and try your very best to do things for him.. and these actions are recipocrated.. i mean.. just a few slips of paper.. simple everydae words.. no fancyful "i love you"s.. no empty promises.. no fake actions.. just so pure.. so true.. thats love.. thats true love.. when one leaves.. the other just follows.. its almost natural.. as if they are one.. one dies and the other is just left with half of herself.. cuz the other half has left.. so she leaves too.. almost unintentionally.. almost as if.. its fated.. as if.. sigh.. i dun know..

but i now i swear i'm back to normal le.. i got used to it.. so congratualtions myself.. i got over him.. hahax.. so now.. i am myself again.. officially myself..
these few daes very crazy abt agartha christie's mystery books.. dunno why.. just feel that they are so unexpected.. the endings.. no matter how i guess.. i just cant get to the right person.. sigh.. she is so smart.. hahax..

还没好好的感受
雪花绽放的气候
我们一起颤抖
会更明白
什么是温柔
还没跟你牵著手
走过荒芜的沙丘
可能从此以後
学会珍惜
天长和地久
有时候
有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开
都有时候
没有什么
会永垂不朽
可是我
有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流
(music)
还没为你把红豆
熬成缠绵的伤口
然後一起分享
会更明白
相思的哀愁
还没好好的感受
醒著亲吻的温柔
可能在我左右
你才追
求孤独的自由
有时候
有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开
都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我
有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流
(music)
有时候有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开
都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流.....

hahax.. suddenli thought of this song.. dunno why.. so long le.. but i like.. suddenli realised i have grown an unknowing loving for night time.. its so late le.. but i'm suddenly so awake.. i think there's something wrong wif me.. i sleep lyk 2-3 hours a dae and i love it.. hahax.. i'm crazy le.. sigh.. i swear i will finish all my hw by hook or by crook this week.. i solemly SWEAR!!! hahax... so.. nothin else le lahx.. joy to the worldx.. i love myself.. lolx.. nitez ppl.. even though i still dun intend to sleep yet.. the nite is still young babe!! hahax.. and btw ppl.. if you ppl cant read the text.. just go VIEW.. then go ENCODING.. then press UNICODE.. then can read le.. hahax.. cheers!!!

2005-06-07T02:07:00.000+08:00

dunno why, suddenly have the urge to blog.. why? becoz its been milleniums since i last did.. lolx.. cant blame me wadx.. i too BZ mahx.. had so many things on my mind.. can write diary veli good le.. still wan me blog.. veli tiring one lehx.. but now got time le mahx.. so can blog le.. yay!!! its HOILDAES!!! seems lyk years since i last slacked and enjoyed without feelin guilty.. k lahx.. now i still a bit guilty.. i promised myself i'd be catchin up on my hw.. but.. hahax..
so much time had lapsed away.. wrinkles are starting to appear on my face.. lolx.. hey,, they RHYME!!! sigh.. i just cant seem to hide it.. i'm a GENIUS.. mUaHaHaHaHaX!!! ahem.. okie.. pardon me.. todae i just lost a nut in my brain.. super high.. maybe becoz i went swimmin yesterdae.. its been lyk sooo long since i last swam.. if i nv remember wrong the last time i actually did swim was back last year.. in december when i went out to sentosa wif gladys n limin n hong wei n yun hao n yan ru.. lolx.. i still remember that time yan ru dug a huge hole in the sand.. just to trip ppl.. lolx.. wonder if anyone actually 'fell' into his trap.. muahahahax.. and that time hong wei had a sore muscle.. which helped him miss spark c.. lolx.. that time he was so funny.. kept insistin that he had fractured his hand.. turn out its just a sore muscle.. lolx.. those were the daes..
thinkin back.. i guess my childhood had really been very fun filled.. cant sae i'm not blessed can i? lolx.. so.. yah.. thought i should add.. i officially broke up wif yun hao.. maybe this should have happened last year.. when we were sayin that we should go back to frens.. cuz when term starts everything would change.. wow.. i guess my prophecy came true again.. everything did change.. and i mean EVERYTHING.. life became more hectic then i can ever imagine.. daes fly past without you even realising it.. all you have time for is work work and more work.. everything seems to be in a whirl.. twice i fell out wif him this year.. as in really big MAJOR times.. the countless quarrels in the middle i shall not put into consideration.. but anyway.. that is already more than the last year and the year b4, all added together.. so you see.. the time has come.. nam chew very cute.. he sae that me and yun hao had become "the" couple le.. as in.. the whole world recognises us as one le.. then when he heard we break le.. he was lyk.. omg!!! even "the" couple also have break de yi tian arhx? hahax.. funni.. cant believe our image to the others was that perfect.. were we that perfect anyway.. sigh.. thats for the future to decide le bahx.. anyway.. we are officially frenx now.. ppl keep asking me whose fault it was.. somehow.. i cant answer that question lehx.. i mean.. we just dunt have time for each other anymore bahx.. as in.. haix.. no point explainin lahx.. ppl.. just stop askin me k?
but anyway.. through tis.. i realised one thing.. the whole world is just sooooo sweet.. i mean.. everytime when i tell ppl as calmly as i can(i'm gettin better and better at that le) that i broke up wif him le.. so stop teasin me abt him.. then everyone just stop and automatically change topic.. and all of them change their topic to some joke so that they can make me laugh.. sigh.. wad can i sae.. my frens RAWK!!! I LOVE YOU PPL!!! lolx.. but seriously, all you guys out there.. you know who you are.. i sincerely wanna thank you ppl for cheering me up.. dun worri.. i'm officially fine le.. hahax.. i thought it over le.. and i think.. wad is mine will be mine.. wad isnt will never be.. so.. i guess.. if he choses it to be this way.. then.. i should let go bahx.. actually.. this has been kinda a relief as well.. once you get used to the fact that he's not yours anymore.. but hey.. i kinda realised that he was never mine.. so theres nothing to get used to.. somemore.. this relationship had been strainin its way since the beginin of this year le.. so i guess its a good thing it finally came to an end.. to sae the truth.. i'm not that sad lehx.. at least not that bad lahx.. better then wad i dreaded it would be.. maybe beciz i had foreseen it coming for so long.. so much so that when i finally came.. no feelin le.. i was the one who initiated it lehx.. so brave right.. lolx.. cuz i noe i was becomin more of his burden then his joy le mahx.. so might as well just let him purse his own happinese lorx.. then wouldnt waste his time and effort.. and would waste my time and effort too wad.. i mean.. if a relationship ends up to be hurting us more then strengthenin us.. wads the point then.. rite? lolx.. so... now.. i'm officially SINGLE AGAIN!!! lolx..
sigh.. but the sad thing is.. without him now.. nobodi can pei wo chu men le!!! SIAN!!! lolx.. stuck at home nothing to do.. at first when holidaes just start i was still thinkin this hoildae must pull up my socks and catch up on my studies.. cuz as i said.. the past half a year was more then i could take.. but.. sigh.. now slackin like anything.. but i SWEAR.. this week i have to finish at least most of my hw and the start of the mountains of stuff on my to-do-list.. lolx.. sigh.. ppl studyin that time i sleepin.. so now i have to JIA YOU LE!!! hahax.. sigh.. the results i got was horrible lorx.. i mean.. i failed a math lehx.. can you believe it??? its like MATH lorx.. and i FAILED MATH!!!! its supposed to be my strong subject and i FAILED IT!!! OMG!!! hahax.. but i came to face this fact eventually.. lolx.. thats why i say have to buck up le lorx.. i mean.. sigh.. the mid year was horrible.. i ranked 23rd in class.. which is like YUCKS!!! and can you believe it 50 in level!!!! sigh.. still cant face up to the fact that i am so lousy.. but hey.. nvm.. WO HUI JIA YOU DE!!!! lolx...
but ppl.. realise arhx.. i am 23 in class le lehx.. but i'm 50 in level... which means.. the 22 before me is all in top 50 lehx.. this is to sae that in the 49 ppl, 22 are from my class.. OMG!!! lyk is that even HUMAN??? hahax.. i think other than a math.. my class had the lowest msg for almost all the subjects.. english, chinese, higher chinese, higher malay, e math, chemistry, bio, ss, history, geog, and lit!!! omg!!! and i didnt write physics onli becoz the teacher nv sae.. but most prob no lahx.. cuz i think t2 did physics better.. lolx.. but hey.. this results is already SCARY okie.. lolx.. even though i noe i'm among those who pulled the msg up instead of down.. but i still veli proud.. cuz its MOI classmates who did this.. who created the phenomenom.. lolx.. sigh.. lyk i always sae.. my class peeps have the ability to strive and shine regardless of whatever HACK circumstances they are in and have a HELL of FUN in the meantime.. sigh.. wad can i sae.. they are just so SMART.. lolx.. so poor little me shall have to spend my remaining holidaes hitting th books le.. just to stop pulling the msg higher and be near just average for a change.. sigh.. that sounds so depressing.. but.. i'll learn to face it.. HAIX!!! hahax...
by the way.. i bought gigi liang yong qi's shun shi zhong.. as in that jing xuan ji.. its so lovely!!! i mean.. every song is just heavenly ok!!! sigh.. how i wish i can sing like her... LaLaLaLa~~~ sigh.. nvm.. i give up.. hahax..
sigh.. so this proved to be another LONG post.. i guess no one will read it.. but nvm!!! there is always ME!!! i will read my owm crap de!!! hahax!!! Qian JIA YOU!!! I LOVE MYSELF~~~ lolx.. and once again.. its me signing off.. may there be JOY TO THE WORLD!!! lolX

2005-04-09T21:18:00.000+08:00

it has been officially years since i last blogged... for the simplest reason that i was too bz to do so.. actually.. more like i was far to sian to type.. so just wrote on mi diary instead.. cuz more or less the same things.. lolx.. i getting lamer and lamer le.. lamers ROX!!! hahaz..sigh.. nothing to sae... life was stupid as eva.. T1s fun.. but damn stress also.. ppl around you are just TOO smart!!! but they are all nice peeps lahz.. all veli interesting ppl.. gavin's pencilcase rox!! and shawn's and valencia's too.. all those animal pencilbox popping out in my class.. turning the class into a zoo... so nice.. going to have public speaking soon.. interesting.. i have NO IDEA wad i going to sae... sigh.. i wanted to talk about whether or not casinos should be built in singapore.. but i find it too sian.. sigh.. now totally lost about wad to sae.. sigh.. forget it lahz.. at the most fail lorz.. i shall break the record by being the first one to fail public speaking.. WOW!!

2005-01-20T22:05:00.000+08:00

sigh...long long nv blog le.. hahaz.. fun lehz.. but horx.. the previous entry caused a lot of comotions... hahaz... eh.. ppl.. be fair lorz...i mean.. YAH.. i did it.. so?? wad you all wan me to do? deny? no point right... sigh... forget it...
life is fun... got new class.. very satisfied.. cuz the class peeps i think all very nice.. hahaz.. then my class got pei yi.. kinda clicked very well wif her... shes a very nice person.. very interesting... hahaz..
then these daes me and him got problem again.. but this time i guess its more serious lorz.. at least i think so lahz.. cuz we seriously not talking le lorz.. but i really nothing to say le lahz.. i mean.. wad can i do right.. he told me say be frens better.. then he tell me sae he wanna concentrate on studies.. then he tell me he cannot find topics to talk to me about.. then already sae until like that le.. wad more can i say.. sigh..
but now.. dunno... lyk no feeling le.. at first still got a bit of heartache.. but now.. lyk nothing le.. hahaz.. maybe this is a good thing lorz..

2004-12-19T13:25:00.000+08:00

sigh.. actually finish typing the entry yesterdae le.. then my computer spoil.. sigh.. so now i retype lo..in my mum's office now.. cuz i at home nothing to do.. finish me sva le.. very shuang.. but its kinda lame la.. i dunno lorz.. cuz that dae we were having internal competition wadz.. then we were sort of competing among ourselves for the position to go into sva wadz.. cuz sva only have a limit. onli 2 teams per school can be sent to participate in the competition. then its lyk video has 4 teams wadz.. then we have internal com lorz.. then its lyk our team got almost half the votes lorz.. then its lyk the other group is you shengs group.. then its lyk all the senoirs never go in lorz.. then its lyk we felt so bad lorz.. i mean hong chia's group did so much for video club lorz.. then if dunt let them go in its lyk so mei2 you3 ren2 qing2 wei4 lorz.. sigh.. so me and limin was saying whether we can give up our team to let hong chia's team go in lorz..then mr lim dunt let.. he say we very ridiculous.. i mean.. he said why we so stupid.. even if we didnt go in and let hong chia go in also he wouldnt win wadz.. for wad lorz.. then i was lyk.. how can lyk that one lorz.. i mean.. they really put in a lot of effort into it lorz.. especially hong chia.. because of sva he 2 daes nv sleep lehz.. i mean.. none of us were as pin1 ming4 as him lorz.. but then in the end.. become hong chia's group go in.. and our group went in also!!! in the end we didnt succeed in pulling our own team out.. we succeeded in pulling you shoeng's team out!!! i was lyk.. wad the??!! how can???!!!! then later also cannot do anything l.. cuz mr lim a bit fed up with us ready lorz.. then we cant do anything much le lahz.. sighz..
then these daes lyk a lot of ppl going to have party lyk that.. i think got more than 5 ppl ask me whether wanna go their christmas party or not ready.. sigh.. dunno which one to go to..
then yesterdae i fa1 feng1 again.. went to see two movies again.. i lyk everytime go watch movie also watch two at a time one lehz.. hahaz.. funny.. then went to watch tian1 xia4 wu2 zei2 and christmas with the kranks lahz.. both was good.. the first one was more on the action side.. buty the ending very tragic.. cuz the guy(played by andy lau) died.. and he die never mind lorz.. he died to fulfil the gal's(played by rene liu2 ruo4 ying1) wish lorz.. i mean.. he's so sweet lorz.. then i lyk its ending.. cuz he wanted to send that message to rene before he die.. he wanted to tell her that her wish was fulfilled.. that sha gen.. a very pure and innocent guy that rene had taken as her younger brother.. was save.. and so was his money... then its lyk.. ayah.. anyway its damn touching lahz.. he asked rene to wait for him.. then she actually did loz.. then when she realised he was dead then she continued waiting lorz.. so touching... then the other movie was more to the comedy side one.. very funny.. but not bad also lahz.. it was about how the couple wanted to skip christmas and go for a cruise.. but the whole neighbourhood forbidden them to do so lorz.. until when their daughter called on christmas eve to tell them she is visiting home with her boyfren.. then the kranks couple started to panic.. funny.. then the whole neighbour came together to help them.. so touching.. then later the mr kranks gave up his cruise and gave it his neighbour.. whom he was forever quarrelling with lorz.. cuz that old couple was very loving lorz.. but the lady of the couple had cancer lahz.. then mr kranks gave them the cruise tickets so that they can enjoy together one last time.. very nice of him lorz.. sigh.. but all in all i guess i still preferred the first one better.. maybe because its in chinese.. then almost all the words were in the more china accent lahz.. then got qin1 qie4 gan3 wadz.. hahaz..
then hor.. i cant believe it lorz.. yh KISSED me!!!! i was lyk.. WAD THE~~??!! at first i was totally shocked lorz.. then i didnt react.. then later when i finally realised i was sitting there for dunno how long ready.. then i stood up and walked back home.. i was lyk damn mechanic lorz.. cuz i seriously couldnt believe he actually did that lorz.. i was lyk??!!!!!! sigh.. when i finally regained my composure then i was lyk.. y am i such an idiot.. should have slapped him man!!! but seriously lahz.. dunno lehz.. at first when i first hugged him i was lyk.. heart attack lorz.. got the heart jumping out that kinda feeling.. but now lyk dunt have ready lyk that.. weird.. wads happening..

2004-12-12T13:13:00.000+08:00

quite a number of things happened these daes.. first.. julius called me yesterdae to ask me to call syamil to tell him not to call his house number anymore.. then he ask me tell qiyin he not going class chalet le.. then his voice sounded so broken.. lyk he just cried or something.. dunno wads up wif him lorz.. hope he's ok..
then SVA is finally coming to an end... next wednesdae will be the official closing deadline for it. after that we finally can slack le.. next dae got class chalet.. i think i staying.. cuz that shall be the last time we r together as a class le lorz.. dunno wad will happen after that lorz... sigh.. hope all of us can excel lahz..
went Kbox wif limin yesterdae.. very nice.. i especially lyked the song ye4 zi3.. so nice.. the MTV i watch until i almost cry... its abt this couple.. then the girl is in a singing competition.. then just before that the guy went to buy drinks for her.. then he finish buying then wanna go back find the gal that time he kena car crash.. then he was sent to hospital.. then the gal had to sing in the competition without the guy watching him.. then later then she realised he died in the car accident already.. she was heartbrokened lyk anything lahz.. then the judge of the singing competition told her she won that competion.. then she was lyk not even excited or anything lorz.. then the MTV show her singing in the recording room.. i especially lyked that part lorz.. cuz the guy's "soul" came to look for the gal.. then he pressed his hand on the glass.. then the glass got his handprint there.. then the gal put her hand on that handprint.. then it was as if the both of them were holding each other's hand through the glass lyk that.. it was lyk damn sad lorz.. but still it was kinda romantic also lahz.. cuz it was lyk they were communicating though the glass.. as if they can feel each other's presence.. even though they were already in different worlds.. so nice lorz.. i mean how deep must love get for you to do that.. then later at the gal's album release that time got interview.. then she sang the guy and her's sorta "theme song of lurve".. which was ye4 zi3 lorz.. then it was lyk soooooooooo sad.. the whole song's feel and its lyrics fitted the MTV so well somemore.. wa.. SHIOK!!! sigh.. when will there eva be a dae when we can shot this kinda thing out also.. sigh...
oh yah.. toking on the phone wif yun hao just now.. i wanted him to help us play canon in d for the sva.. then yesterdae i gave him the scores.. then todae he come and tell me he cannot play.. he say its too difficult.. then he also gave me that stressed voice.. then i also cannot do anything lahz.. then i said forget it lorz.. then he was lyk... hey.. sorry lehz.. you know horz.. when i heard that "sorry lehz" then i was lyk.. can i bash you!!! i mean... y is it that everytime he must do something wrong then later tell me he's sorry.. then by that time i also cannot blame him le.. i mean.. wad is this lorz.. his fault he blame himself, i dont care.. not his fault also he blame himself.. ok fine.. then can he lyk for once stop doing things that can make himself sorry not.. i was lyk.. fed up lorz.. almost wanted to say that to him lorz.. but then if i did.. i guess he would tell me "ya.. i noe i useless.." blah blah blah.. i mean.. pls lorz.. can he have more confidence wif himself or not??!!! sigh.. last few daes hz just scolded him for being a pain in the neck.. cuz he say he too irritating.. too indecisive.. too crazy... then he say if lyk that one dae i will also get sick of yh.. at that point of time i was still lyk... quite angry wif hz for saying that lorz.. i mean.. who was he to 'predict' my feelings lorz.. and who was he to hurt yh lyk that lorz.. i mean.. he should noe that if he said that then yh would be lyk damn hurt lorz.. but now.. finally i understood hz.. feel lyk calling him now.. but i guess should be cannot lahz.. nvm lahz.. next time see him must remember to tell him.. but i CANNOT do the same thing as hz.. if i did i guess yh will seriously break down lorz.. that is.. if he could still break down lahz.. he these few daes got sick or something.. ayah.. I DUN CARE LE LAHZ!!!!!!!!!!!
suddenly feel so stressed... wad to do for sva??!! wad to do wif yh??? wad to do for my guitar and piano?? wad to do for pipa? feel lyk screaming... ARGH!!!

2004-12-04T22:00:00.000+08:00

so.. continue from the last time.. i went out watch movies wif yun hao few daes ago.. when i say movies... i mean movieS.. cuz we watched 2 movies.. incredibles and the polar express... very funny.. both were very nice.. incredibles was more of the action side.. you can actually feel you heart pumping onez... then polar express was more to the inspirational kind.. like wad julius said.. you have to know how to read between the lines one.. which both me and yun hao managed to lahz.. so it was kinda touching lorz.. tell you to believe in everything.. when you trust the legends.. you will get rewarded.. kinda nice lorz.. then yun hao say he shall start believing in christmas.. hahaz... lame.. as he always was... but thats not the point lahz.. the point was.. after the movie.. we were walking in westmall mahz.. then we came across that DIY bear bear shop... then he wanted to buy one.. then he wanted both of us each buy one... then i didnt wan.. k lahz.. i getting lame.. anyway.. so he bought one in the end.. i didnt... cuz i didnt wanna waste money.. then in that bear you can make a wish lahz.. then his wish was that i could stay in singapore forever.. then i can be together with him lorz.. sigh.. at first i quite touched lorz.. cuz i nv thought he would wish that... i thought he would wish that hz and him would foreva be frenx or something lorz... but anyway lahz... then that night i really went crazy lorz.. cuz when he asked me to hug him.. i actually DID lorz... cannot believe it man.. that night when i was about to sleep then i was thinking mahz... then i was lyk.. wad did i do that for??? sigh... but wads done cannot be undone lahz.. hope i can keep my mind next time lahz.. if there ever is a next time that is..
then horz.. yesterdae limin really burst lorz.. she was lyk super fed up lorz.. she sae we too slack le.. SVA onli left 5 daes and we still playing... guess she was right lahz.. so i must buck up le... jia you.. hope the SVA can have good results lahz.. cuz we spent so much time lorz.. if our efforts go down the drain then really a little wasted.. no.. our efforts CANNOT go down the drain.. it WILL NOT go down the drain!!!
then todae went out wif mum to but electronicz.. then i saw yu jia!!!! i was lyk O MY GOD!!!! seriously cant believe my luck lorz.. she was wif her husband looking at toyz.. hahaz... few daes ago my left eyelid was jumping.. then they say zuo2 yan3 tiao3 fu2 you4 yan3 tiao4 huo4 wadz.. guess this is it le lorz.. i am SOOO lucky!!!
i really think my nick for msn now rock lorz... h0l1d@eS R S000000 c00l.. m@k3s U tH1nk.. w@d 3x@cTl9 1s 3 d1ff.. h0l1d@eS 0r N0t.. L1f3 iS sT1ll h3cT1c as 3v@...

2004-11-29T21:58:00.000+08:00

sigh... time is flying lyk nobodi's business... one moment i still thinking i starting the holidaez.. in a blink of an eye then i realised.. we onli have one month left.. seems so impossible.. haven even start enjoying yet lehz!! haiz... how lehz... saw those books we getting next year.. damn scary lorz.. u see u wanna sleep le... some more all damn heavy lorz.. dunno how 2 survive next year.. got so much load on your back... wanna de-stress also cannot.. sigh.. but as ting wei said... cannot keep lamenting and not do anything!!! must jia you next year le... dun wanna regret lyk this year.. but saying is one thing.. dunno whether i can really do that not lorz.. hope i can lahz.. must have confidence in myself!!! anyway.. lyk i said: worry about tomorrow's things tomorrow! enjoy wad i have today today!! BE HAPPY~~ JIA YOU~~
anyway.. that aside.. spent almost 5 hrz today on a hand.. went to that 3ds max course today wadz.. then got that character animation lorz.. then have to do one hand.. then do lorz.. actually its not difficult lahz.. but its damn tedious lorz.. so spent a very long time lorz.. ok lahz.. most of the things is hai guang do one lahz.. i admit lorz.. but i was still there lorz.. somemore i nothing to do lorz.. so its even more sian.. sigh.. but anyway i really think hai guang is a very funny person.. he beside me onli then i laugh lyk mad le.. hahaz...
oh yah.. that dae i think i kinda agreed to be yun hao's stead officially lorz.. then its lyk horz.. sigh.. i was kinda lost that dae lorz.. then seriously dunno wad to do wadz.. so i said ok lorz.. then its lyk i really dunno whether i made the right choice or not lorz.. so ayah... dun care lahz.. i mean.. just lyk what i read from a book.. teenage life is a time for us to be extravagent with all our strength and will... we WILL be able to achieve wad we want if we set our hearts to it.. we must be curious.. we should try everything that come our way.. so that we will not live to regret... guess if i tried.. then even if it did not work out.. which i think most prob wouldnt lahz.. but at least i wouldnt live to regret it later lorz.. really hope i doing the right thing.. sigh.. utala hikaru got a song: " time will tell" .. guess i shall really have to wait le lorz.. tomorrow going out wif him watch movie.. dunno wad will happen.. hope its something good lahz..

2004-11-13T13:05:00.000+08:00

sigh... got so many things to do these daes.. but still so sian... yesterdae handed in the KWN thingy...FINALLY!!! so thats one load off my mind.. now can concentrate on SVA le... then yesterdae CO had a test... then also very funny... cuz i was practically not doing anything lorz.. then adeline still say i passed.. hahaz.. then we went to the organic farm yesterdae and the dae b4.. it was very nice and all.. but the bad part was that all of us managed to scrape off at least 30+ bites from the countless mosquitoes there... personally.. i got a grand total of 42 kisses from those " cute " thingyz.. didnt noe until yesterdae that i was actually so "well-loved" by "the other kind"... hahaz.. but anyway.. other than that... the experience was worth the trip and the horror of the "kisses" really... cuz we saw all those greenhouses and how those ppl planted all those vegggies... we really learnt a lot... what really captured me was how those ppl were willing to give and put in so much time and effort just to protect the environment.. furthermore.. we saw how the vegetables had to compete with the weeds for survival... it kinda ironic seriously.. those plants are actually fighting to be eaten... wad kinda of a "survival" is that?? but really... it shows how cruel nature can get.. i mean.. even in the plant world.. only the fittest survives and the weaker ones always have to face the terrible consequences... in the human world... its defeat... its humiliation... downright despise from the winners, the so called stronger ones... and in the plant world... its the terrible death... sigh.. just like the title of ABBA's song... the winner takes it all... sigh...
but anyway... philosophy aside.. i realised i tend to crap a lot on these type if things these daes.. sigh.. wads wrong wif me... maybe i am getting old.. hahaz.. anyway.. its nov 13 today... in less than 24 hourz... it shall be yun haoz bdae.. wad to do... i have to answer him lehz... wad am i supposed to say... should i sae yes or no... this morning i woke up.. and i was thinking.. do i seriously love him?? then i found out i still dunt know... seriously how does it feel lyk when you love somebody??? HELP!!! i really need help lorz... wad to do... limin is foreva telling me to accept him... she saez he treats me very well... but then i thought thats not the point wadz... i mean.. i thought the whole point of being together with the person is that you have to love him or her?? is it based on how good that person treats you??? sigh... i am seriouslu lost... and i totally do Not have any braincells left to think abt tis question ready... HOW???

2004-11-06T19:02:00.000+08:00

sigh... just changed my blog skin.. i think tis one looks not bad lorz.. then again i so long nv blog le.. cuz.. dunno lehz.. just dunt feel lyk it.. then these few daes also nothin much going on.. we choose our combination le.. then we found out who get wad ready.. then i in triple.. i guess i am happy wif that lahz.. but i scared i get too stressed.. sigh.. hope not lorz.. then i taking history as minor and lit as major... cuz my mother asked me to.. sigh.. she is practicalli taking over my life now... first she ask me to take lit as major.. then she ask me to go take up piano again.. sian.. so now wif piano and guitar.. sigh... getting busier then before.. dunno when school reopens i can cope not.. sigh.. i seriously dont want this holiday to end.. school life is getting positively hectic nowadays... i guess the moe ppl are seriously about breaking all our pretty fantasies about teenage life... sigh.. stress man.. even after exams le.. i can still feel the choking sensation whenever i think about exams.. thank god i did ok for this year streaming.. if not i would probably jump down from the building to commit suicide.. haha...

2004-09-11T15:02:00.000+08:00

2 months nv blog liaoz... shall not say wad happened in the middle... just noe that a lot of things happened... mega concert was here and over.... all the songs were very nice.. a very interesting experience and all... then yun hao ask mi to be his stead... then finally i agree... cuz mi sian liaoz... really think maybe he is serious lorz... cuz i say no so many times liaoz wadz... and that time i not sure whether i lyk him or not wad... so i dunt wanna pass the chance... in case i lyk him how?? yah lahz.. thats y lorz.. then hor... i went to that trip to china lahz... it was DAMN FUN!!!!!!!! we SOOOOOO enjoyed ourselves... the first dae we went there still nothing much happened lorz... cuz we were lyk still a bit not that close wad... then we just got down from aeroplane wad.. so very tired lorz... then we went to tienanmen then we saw that mao zedong's corpse... it was SCARY!!! cant believe those ppl can do that to him... die ready still show his body to ppl... lyk he animal from the zoo lyk that... sigh... wad can i do?? its their choice lahz... but i just feel that it is a bit inhumane lorz... then we went to the forbidden city aka imperial palace lahz... there was 9999 rooms in total in that palace lorz... then we walk lyk siao... walk and walk and walk also nv finish... all we see is rooms and more rooms... sigh... wad can i say?? those ppl are just TOO rich back then... nowhere to waste their money wad... then spend on "decorating" their "house" lorz... then we went to tian tan... another bian tai place... even bigger then that imperial palace lorz... walau... scari.. but we only went to a few places lahz.. nv walk through the whole thing... heng arhz!!! the hui yin bi was nice... its the echo wall in english lahz... one person stand at one end the another person stand opposite as far as possible.. then communicate by toking to the wall... then you will be able to hear very clearly wad the other person is toking lorz... then later we went to eat dinner... then shen lao shi really LOVE eating fish man... shiok!!! he practically finished the whole fish by himself... then later at night there was quite a fuss about who to sleep where lorz... then it was quite frustrating lahz... ayah... by all well ends well... got a happy ending.. i sleep wif gladys and limin.. then qiyin sleep wif caslin... heehee... quite glad of this arrangment lorz... then later yun hao and yan ru and jia min and yong xiang all came to our room to play cards... then we had quite a lot of fun... but we all tired liaoz wad... so all went to sleep quite early...

2004-07-11T18:16:00.000+08:00

k... continue... got bad thing also... cuz you get to realize there are tons of things you missed... all the fun and all the homework... then you have to catch up with everything by one week... thats like scary!!! ayah... anyway.. since i had so much fun... its worth it lahz... but horh.. the amount of wwork seemed to b increasing these daes... getting tired so fast... haiz... jiamin sae i missing a few rays liaoz... cuz she sae last time i very sunny one.. now got cloud ready... haiz.. dunno wad came over mi that few daes... but now i am back to normal liaoz... happy as eva... i think maybe those few daes i not that sunny is becuz i miss mi family back in china.. sigh wadeva... i guess i just hav to bare with that for a very long time liaoz lorz.. wad to do... and oh yah... about yun hao... he sae he lyk mi... dunt even noe whether he meant it or not lorz.. cuz in between the two times he said he lyked mi there was a huimin... then if he can change so fast... i dunno... i just sort of cant trust him anymore... sigh... izzit really too much for mi to ask for a guy without any "history"?? those kinda guys i think now ready extinct liaoz.... sad... sob... but maybe there is still one lahz... remember i wrote yesterdae i met three guys in china... ayah... let mi sae the whole story lahz
k... so its lyk i was wif mi cousin for a wu3 shu4 competition in china...then i saw this three ppl... young and handsome~~~ k lahz.. then they damn good at fighting lorz... and i dunt mean those punching ppl type of ah beng... i mean really gongfu lorz.. and they really pro lorz... then when the end they waiting for results that time they were sitting beside mi... then i was asking my mother whether i could have ice-cream... cuz i suddenly had this huge craving for junk food lahz... then i asked mi mum in english wad... that was unintentional... i swear!!! then those three ppl look at mi... then the cutest(and the best fighter) among them was lyk staring at mi... then i got puzzled wad... cuz i thought i did something wrong... then i realized i spoke in english... which was lyk so rare in china... then i told them i chinese sae i was asking mi mother for money to buy ice-cream... then they " ooorh!!!" then all 4 of us was lyk laughing... then later i went wif mi cousin to go get ice cream... then at the back of mi ear i heard them saying... to themselves "Hey... that gal quite interesting arhz..." that time i dunno they toking about mi lorz... i thought they saying someone else... then when i came back happily wif mi ice-cream then this small tiny guy came up to mi then tell mi say somebody wanna tok to mi... then i ask him whu mahz... then he pointed to that guy... the cute one... haha... then i got a shock lorz... then i started to walk over to those three ppl... then two of them siam... left the cute one there alone (poor thing) then he instantly turn into lyk tomato lyk that... red lyk anything... haha... then i ask him was he the one whu called mi... then he stammer stammer... then sae it wasnt... then he pointed to the other two ppl... then i got bewildered wad then i hack care liaoz.. then i walk away... then that guy kept starring at mi... that time i really thought i did something wrong you noe... then i got so scared that they would come after mi... well in a way they did lahz... but is in another sense lorz.. cuz later that ah boy came up to mi again to ask mi for mi name... which i told him lahz... then later i saw that cute guy torturing the ah boy then in the end he scream mi name... that time i was still so puzzled lorz.. then later an auntie came up to tell mi say that cute guy wanted to noe mi and b frens lahz... then i was lyk....ok... so that cute guy is a weirdo... then later they kept starring lorz.. and worst of all they nv say anything... then when i stare back they pretend they nv see mi... sigh... haha... thinking back... its quite funny also... then later they went back together wif their family... then i was lyk... ok... so thats all for that cute weirdo... then later after about ten minutes then i headed home also wif mi family lahz... then that three guys pop up from nowhere then ask mi for contact numbers... scare mi lorz... i thought they went home... then after some toking then we just exchange number and also that qq (chinese msn thing) address lahz... heehee... this can be considered one of the more memoriable things that happened lahz... also veli funny lorz... hahaz... some bad things also happened lahz... lyk i went to see mi grandma... i had to face the fact finally that she is gone foreva... no more kind expressions from her and no more fantastic food liaoz... but lets not tok about that... cuz i might start crying all over again... sigh......
oh yah... tomorrow got lit test... speaking of literature test... i'm gonna fail the last one... so have to work hard for this one lorhz... no... is MUST!!! JIA YOU!!!!
watch a french movie just now... nice... very cute.. the style and technic also veli different... you watch then you noe is took a lot of time to plan one lorz... sigh... wonder when i can shoot lyk that...
and oh yah... can someone tell mi wad to answer yunhao???

2004-07-10T23:09:00.000+08:00

hi ppl!!! so looooooooong nv blog liaoz.... so much things happened lately....mi life was hell of fun in china... lots of things happened... k lahz... not boring you ppl with the details just tell you all its very fun... learnt a lot of new things... ans i saw gery on the sampan on huang pu jiang... sigh... how small can the world get? somemore that time on the same tour was a guy whu was gery's bro's fren also... so counted as reunion lahz... haha... met this three guys in china... damn cute... as in both very cute in personality and in looks lahz...heehee... then i got their contact number ready lorz... so these few daes damn crazy over this chinese messenger thingy cuz wanna keep in touch wif those ppl... haha... oh yah... when i came back then i realise mi nv bring enough presents to go around... haha... sigh...life got back to normal when school started again... got bacck to that hectic lifestyle... realized that life sucks as a student... sigh... wad to do... but actualli also not bad lahz... cuz you get to see your frens again...thats the good thing lahz... but got bad thing also... cuz ayah... tok tomorrow...

2004-05-24T22:40:00.000+08:00

so long nv blog liaoz... a lot of thingy happen... but cannot remember liaoz... got back all mi papers... damn angry wif mi resultz... cuz didnt do well for anything... but anyway... very happy now... cuz leaving for the airport to china in a few moments time... damn high!!! wish mi luck ppl....
anyway... before i leave... lets crap a bit while i wait for mi mum! i fainted in school on mondae... cuz of low blood pressure and low glucose level i think... ayah... anyway i just felt giddy half way through the anthem... then tahan until pledge then gave way... sigh... wadeva... anyway... felt fine after a while... so still got go co... these few daes eveydae also got co... dunno for wad... the ppl also nv practice... go down there tok cork sing song play mahjong... hahaz... learn from kian onez...
oh yah... yun hao said he lyk mi... again.... wadeva.....more up dates next time....( mi mum is screaming at mi liaoz!! ) byez ppl!!! dun miss mi too much....HAHAHA

2004-05-11T12:36:00.000+08:00

i HATE LIFE!!! how can life be so unfair??? i got into the chinese ochestra mega concert and they dont let me go cuz i have to go on holidae... i can go for video kino camp also becauz of that cursed holidae have to let ppl take my place... i can go for both after effect and another course for video... but they ALSO DUNT LET MI GO!!! I WANNA GO!!!! how can life be so unfair??? wad i wanna go i cannot go... wad i dont wanna get they gimme... i have to do that chuang yi xie zuo again!!! walao... damn sian lorz... i wanna go for that maths competition they dun wanna let mi go... i wanna take that english competition also i cannot take... ALL BECAUSE OF THAT STUPID HOLIDAE!!! i wanna go for holidae that time they dunt wanna let mi go... i dunt wanna take test that time but they make mi take.... but now lehz?i wanna take test and they dunt let mi... i wanna go competition but they disallow mi to... i dunt wanna go for concert they force mi to go... now i wanna go but they make mi give up my seat... i dunt wanna study that time they force mi to.... i wanna take course now but i cannot!!! how unfair can life get??? how much better a time for a damn holidae??? HELP!!! I GOING CRAZY LIAOZ!!!!!

2004-05-08T16:25:00.000+08:00

a brand new start...from todae onwards...HAHAHA!!! Damn high!!! cuz exams are finally O-V-E-R OVER!!!!! i can't believe the bloody week is finally over and done with! wadeva mi resultz...well... i cant say i wouldnt care lahz.... but at least not that scared ready lorz... anyway i cant change time... so at the most fail everything only mahz... but better not lahz horz... i target mi results to be a A... but now maybe not possible ready lahz....so i dunno lorz... i wanted to win yun hao onez... but now i noe cannot ready... sigh. sadz... but anyway.... now that things are over....i wouldnt think that much ready.... hope everything will turn out well lorz...
went out to bugis wif limin gladys and chu yi yesterdae... damn fun... eat until lyk nobody's business... ate A LOT man!!! must go on diet liaoz... haha... XP after that mi and limin went to search for her watch strap... then the uncle sae dun hav anymore... then we go a lot of other shopz also they sae dun hav... sigh... she will just hav to get a new watch liaoz... so lucky... but unlucky also lahz... cuz that watch of hers veli nice onez... now cannot use ready....
very few things happen lately... so nothing much to crap about... cuz there was examz earlier... mi life was horrible.... go sch for examz.... come home still must study for next subject... damn hectic lorz... dunno wad i was doing myself...then after that is post exam period... everybody at home slacking... enjoying the pleasures of just being plain sian... haha... i didnt noe being sian can be so blissful lehz... damn nice... to be able to just lie down there for hourz starring into space... just waiting for life to past... seeing everyone around you still struggling to cope wif a kinda stress while you can sit down there and laugh... wah.... SHIOK ARHZ!!!! ( ok... i noe i very pian4 tai4... but i cant help it lahz.... really very shuang3 onez... trust mi!!! )

2004-05-04T16:32:00.000+08:00

wah... good news... i actually passed mi history source based...by one mark....sigh crap lahz.... why lyk that onez.... ppl nv finish mahz... give me so little markz... so bad onez they all.... but at least nv fail lahz... but still pull down mi grades a lot... mi history from A1 drop to B3 liaoz... sigh... wad can i sae? and todae... mi damn angry... or should i say sadz... anyway... seven markz gone for mi science liaoz... shit lahz.... i cannot believe i actually forgot kinetic theory of matter...so sadz.... i m definately failing mi science now.... got no confidence to score well for anything lehz... still wanna crap wad wanna win yun hao... sigh... wait long long also dont have one lahz... i have a feeling i will even drop out of the top ten in mi class.... and wad if i fail my english.... my vocab all wrong ready lehz... wad if i fail mi lit... cuz i wrote about 3 pages all together and the others wrote at least 4 all together.... and wad if i fail mi history... cuz i got all the sequencing wrong... SHIT LAHz.... haven even get back the stupid paperz ready i noe i gonna drop to normal.... wad if i hav to stay back... AHHHH!!!! i am officially going crazy.... How!!! feel lyk crying ready lahz... i just knew it.... whenever i study for an exam then i wouldnt do well.... wad kinda thing is that man...... aHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can i scream??? no....cuz i got sore throat...fine...even heaven is making fun of mi.....damn idiot bloody shit man....Food you lahz.....

ok...i back to normal ready... sigh... very agitated these few daez... too stressed up... sigh..... alwayz look on the bright side of life...( whistlez....but no sound come out...) sigh... maybe the whole class also do very badly...hahaz...no lahz... dont mean it... oi ppl... i not cursing you all arhz... may 207 score higher than even 201 this time roundz... i mean it... ayah... 2 more subjects than test finish ready... still got maths and chinese.....even though no use ready...but good luck to myself lahz........

2004-04-28T16:42:00.000+08:00

so long nv blog liaoz...exams are finally here....very bz nowadaez...so nv blog liaoz lorz... sigh... they sae a lot of ppl failed their history source based...die liaoz lorz...win liaoz lorz... i confirm fail ready lahz.... if i dont score well for my history mid year exam then i confirm fail history ready lorz...sharkz lahz....not mi fault i nv finish right... sigh... i haven get the full impact of failure yet...when i get back mi paper i confirm cry onez... i really didnt expect such lousy markz for one of my favourite subjects you noe...sobz...
todae i finally hand in my dnt and ipw ready....so means those 2 that give mi a lot of work to do is finally gone...Hip Hip Hurray!!! sigh... at first got some problemz onez... for the ipw....but in the end ok ready...phew!!! *sweatz* dnt nothing much happened lorz....except i ask mi group memberz to mark mi down....cuz i think i did too little...sigh... i dunno whether they did or not... but most prob they will lahz...i see their face i noe they also think so...sigh... dave ask mi i sad not... then i sae no... cuz i think wad they did was right... then he dont believe... sigh.... dunt ask mi why... i haven got the slightest idea!
then horz... everybody wish mi good luck for the coming examz yah!!! JIA YOU!!!

2004-04-20T18:29:00.000+08:00

sigh....so long nv blog ready... a lot of things happened these daes... no time to touch computer....haiz... letz start from saturdae....band competition...very sad... happy happy go there... hoping gladys and our band will win then will get gold...but in the end only get silver... then 4 bandz got gold and worst of all no band got bronze... so counted as lost the competition ready lahz.... sigh... the resultz come out that time veri shocked.... didnt expect we will score so low... then another band...shant say wich lahz... but that band sucks lorz... dunno why they can get gold we cannot... then when the band came to play in front of us... saw gladys cry.... damn sad... got cry a bit for her... cuz... i dunno lehz... just felt lyk it lorz... maybe cuz i think we deserve gold lorz... cuz they really trained veli hard... the skin tone change from damn white to even darker thatn those vball ppl... sigh... then band ppl cry until lyk siao.... cant blame them... they put in a ot of effort... sigh... poor gladys.... lucky gladys back to normal ready... now she is as cheerful as ever... as long as you dunt tok about band then nothing will happen...(phew!) *sweat*
another thing is hor... todae we finally celebrated limin's bdae....late for 4 daes lehz... haiz...but very fun lahz... she thought she saw her cousin when the cake arrive to surprise her... then she run out.... thats about the only accident lahz... went quite smoothly lorz... happy....finally nobody's bdae anymore... no needa worry about anymore presentz anymore... YEAH!!!
these few daes a lot of test.... almost cry yesterdae.... cuz i didnt finish the history.... still got 2 questions left....means i definately fail ready lorz...sigh... sadZzZz....SOBZZZ!!!! todae lit also i nv finish.... but that one not counted in CA.... so not that bad lahz...anyway the whole class also nv finish wad... so nvm lahz... sigh... y these few daes so stress arhz... still got a lot of hw nv finish.... but really lazy lehz... dunt fell lyk doing... HELP!!!

2004-04-12T17:49:00.000+08:00

sigh... so long nv blog liaoz... so sian these few daes... i was damn touched by mi mum yesterdae's yesterdae... she waited for mi at the bus stop for two hours... so touched...SOBZ!!!
todae... i sabo gladys... during assembly... i pointed to gladys mahz... then that "talker" saw... then he ask gladys to answer... haha... then i have to " pay" her back....have to do ten things for her... sigh... may god bless mi....
okie...dunno wad to sae liaoz....byezz.....

2004-04-07T21:23:00.000+08:00

sadz...todae mi leg damn pain sia... XP sigh....veli ong nv update liaoz...cuz mi veli sian nowadayz...a lot of work to do... just went to video...shot this film about a guy and a gal...something lyk puppy love...veli sweet...some more is zhi yu and kelvin acting as gal and guy...hahazz...they really look lyk a couple lehz... some more i made them hold handz...so romantic...hahaz...speaking of love... yun hao was rejected by huimin....sigh...wad can i do??? poor him...so suai... everytime fall in love with the wrong person.... he tell mi say he wouldnt force her....is that supposed to be the ending....or just the begining...XP
why is everyone lyk that one... alwayz fall in love wif someone that will nv work out wif him or her...is that wad love is?? just something that makes one so sad? sigh....why love so complicated onez.... lucky mi dont have anything to do wif it...mi not into bgr...hahazz...
we got the exam timetable ready...we still have 30 more days till the end of our exams...the first paper is one 19th of april...an sbq....sigh....i scared i cannot finish lorz...sbq everytime needa crap a lot onez....scared cannot write fast enough....even more scared i that time will hav mind block...sigh...wad to do??
some more these few daez veli stress...a lot of tests coming up...maths and chinese test....... and all the exams coming up.....haiz... tis year streaming... so by hook or by crook i have to get good resultz....JIA YOU!!!

2004-04-05T08:58:00.000+08:00

blogging during ipw again...sigh.dnt understand wad the crap that teacher is toking about...wads her problem....tok so fast....haiz...saw this email in abortion...damn gross...YUCKS!!!! sigh...wad can i do....those ppl arhz....dun anyhow sex here sex there can not...those poor babies...damn poor thing lorz... haiz...checking email during ipw...cuz mi completely lost about wad to do...sigh... wad to do...some more nobody from tis ow noe how to do sia...how shi1 bai4 can the teacher get...anyway...todae forgot to bring sentosa worksheet...sie lahz.. dunno wad that miss chew will say...idiot sia...sigh...
yun hao told huimin he lyk her ready....HAHAHA!!!! and i thought he might fight wif jordan for grace...wow...he and all the huimins veli you3 yuan2 lehz... dunno wad that huimin will answer....hope she will agree...then he would devote his attention to her...then will stop complaining about hw sad his lif is liaoz... haha... joy to the world!!!!
i realize mi blog a lot of crap about him...ok....so now mi will tok more about other ppl....ly....limin lorz... she cut her hair todae....looks lyk jiamin now... wads her problem...everydae cut hair...sigh...i think she and mi taste really very different sia...but ayah....not bad lahz... GO LIMIN GO!!! haha...
then still got wad arhz... gery and nam chew now going kee siao about anime... sigh... dunt understand wad they tokin about...dunt feel lyk understanding anyway... i need a pillow!!! wanna sleep liaoz... :O zzz...
oh yah... i think that poem cannot read lehz...sigh...pity lorzz....too bad... sorry for any inconveniences cauzed

2004-04-03T20:48:00.000+08:00

sigh...nothing is going on nowadayz....so sian...suddenly feel that i lyk living corpse lyk that...nothing exciting is happening at all...feel so empty...haiz...yesterdae, went to co...then went to practice that we are singapore thingy...damn lame...dunno how to play...then hong li was so scary... sigh....wad to do....heard of this really nice poem..in chinese...
从明天起，做个幸福的人。
喂马，劈柴，周游世界。
从明天起，关心粮食和蔬菜。
我有一所房子，面朝大海，春暖花开！

从明天起，和每一个亲人通信
告诉他们我的幸福
那幸福的闪电告诉我的
我将告诉每一个人

给每一条河每一座山取一个温暖的名字
陌生人，我也为你祝福
愿你有一个灿烂的前程
愿你有情人终成眷属
愿你在尘世获得幸福
我只愿面朝大海，春暖花开！

wow! sounds so carefree...lyk got no troubles lyk that! but ironically...that poet died killing himself...hahazz...why everbody lyk that one...saying things that they dont mean...anyway...happy birthdae ting wei ( i mean it ok! )

2004-04-02T20:36:00.000+08:00

about wad i wrote yesterdae..i dont mean wad you all think i mean lorz....sigh!!! i meant i dunno how to answer you ppl...if i sae i lyk yun hao...ppl will start crapping about all those pervertic thingys...if i sae i dont lyk yun hao...ppl will tell mi i very wasted...got such a genius also dont want...cuo4 shi1 liang2 ji1... SIGH! thats why i sae i dont noe...please lorz...now i realise i cannot even sae dont know...cuz those ppl will sae i not sure of mi feelingz...so i might hav a possibility of lyking him....SIGH*1000000....y cant you ppl just accept the fact that we are friendz only...END OF STORY!!! dont think so far can not? if in the end the person he lyk think wrongly then how....it will become my fault lehz! i swear i only take him as a friend lorz... he also only take mi as a friend lahz... iand i repeat for the last time....he NEVER LYK MI BEFORE!!! mi not so despo yet lorz....

2004-04-01T19:42:00.000+08:00

sigh...todae chu yi's bdae...damn happy...so fun!!! on the other hand...todae jia min and yun hao damn unlucky lorz...they kena scolding by that idiot teacher who does not understand their class at all...food him lahz!!! sigh...yun hao and jia min trick mi todae... for april fool's....at first i was really shocked lorz... cuz i didnt expect him to act so fast... then i spread to a lot of ppl...then all of them ask mi the same question," then you lehz? you not heartbrokened mehz??" sigh... why do they all think that i lyk yun hao....do i??? i dunno lehz...if you ask mi 2 months earlier...i will tell you straight in the face "NO!!!!!!!!" one lorz.... now... i dunno ready.... ayah....wadevea...mi starting to crap ready...sigh...nvm...forget it.WAD TO DO??

2004-03-31T11:47:00.000+08:00

blog something during ipw...cuz mi dun wanna do work...too lazy...and too sian...
sigh... got into a fight wif yun hao AGAIN!!! sigh...but tis time its really a misunderstanding lorz... i thought he " betray " mi...cuz i told him something i was NOT supposed to lorz... but at first i wasn't worried cuz i thought i could trust him not to tell anyone..but then the gal sae she received an sms from yun hao saying that he knew all her secrets... then she damn scared that he will leak out lorz... then she thought i was the one who told him.... then in the end she almost got angry wif mi...sigh... i at first really thought he didn't keep his promise lorz.. i thought he was the one who told pearlyn lorz... but in the end i found out he actually didnt hav the gals number. i cannot believe i cuo4 guai4 him lorzz.. felt so guilty...sorri yun hao....
ask him that dae if one dae grace ask him to be her stead will he agree... then he sae most prob. would...hahazz.. i think he still lyk her... maybe one dae he will fight with jordan for grace... hahahzz.. i will be down there laughin' lorz... HAHAHA!!!!
anyway...tomorrow is chu yi's bdae...and april fools day....gonna buy her present after school...but i still dunno wad i am buying wif her...limin will be going wif mi...hope she has some inkling wad to buy lorz...haizz...hav to skip video club all becuz of her lehz... now i so scared those video club ppl will come after me..how????

2004-03-29T15:38:00.000+08:00

sigh...got home so early 2dae...nothing to do...so sian....got a bio test tomorrow, but dont feel lyk studying...maybe i will go study later...no...MUST go study later!!! speaking of tests, done a D&T test during common test todae... i sure fail liaozz....cuz i left the whole of the last page blank... 14 marks leh!!! doom liaoz...why these few daes got so many tests one??? begining of term 2 only lehz... still got 8 weeks to go lorzz... how to tahan??
felt lyk an idiot just now... i was at the bus stop waiting for 188, reading comics, then suddenly the bus come...then i never see...then continue reading... all the way until someone tap my shoulder and tell me the bus come ready....then i so paiseh...then rush to go catch the bus... walau... my face lyk tomato lyk that.... then the worst came when i accidentally drop my books on the floor... then i had to pick up... then can feel all those ppl behind me staring at me lorzz... then nobody wanna help me... some more that stupid bus uncle lorz... keep on beep beep beep~ing.... lyk i blind cannot see the bus in front of me lyk that... stupid!!! then when i finally collected my things, my wallet dunno go where... then i on the bus cannot find my ez link card... then the bus uncle keep staring at me... damn malu one!!! lucky i found it in the end.... if not i really lose a lot of face lehz... had to run and sit at the back of the bus to hide from the bus uncle.....so embarrassing!!!!!!

2004-03-28T20:58:00.000+08:00

todae is joy's bdae....and i forgot to buy her a present...shit lahz...howz...?sigh....hav to tell her tomorroe say i forgot to buy...feel so bad...i didnt mena it lorzz...last year she brought a really cute present for me...then now i forgot about her birthdae totally...wad a good fren i am...sigh...but wad can i do? at least something good happened todae....caric not angry wif mi anymore! shoh happy! at least now i dont have to worry i will kena scoldingz when i go online! i found out whu that mysterious person hu added mi is liaoz....he is some kinda person from california( is that how you spell that name? ) i think i met him on go gaia...chatted veli long wif him...even though i didnt noe him and he didnt noe mi....but that's the whole point of having pen-pals wad....so had quite a lot of fun trying to guess whu he was and that sorta thing...i noe it is veli lame...but when you are veli sian.....anything to do will seem fun one... trust me!

2004-03-27T16:01:00.000+08:00

sian....saturdae liaoz...waited so long for 2dae but now reach liaozz then find it so sian.....nvm. so long nv update liaoz..nothing to do so crap a bit here...had a row wif yun hao yesterdae....so upset that he didnt trust mi....at least not as much as i trusted him lorz...< disappointed > sigh...wad can i do?? so when he called mi at night then i just let the matter rest liaozz lorz... anywae he said sorry wad...so nvm lahz.... do i sound lyk i am trying 2 comfort myself? when did i become lyk that??? sigh... when i finally heard his story, i hoped i didnt hear it lorzz... why is jordan acting lyk ryan?? all guyz SUCKS!!!!!!!! its not fair! why must it always be guys hu breaks the gals heart? why cant they just settle on one gal to luv at a time... dont being so despo for attention can not? getta life man!

2004-03-22T16:10:00.000+08:00

Sigh...just created a new account cuz i lost the old one....so sian....got tons of homework but dont feel lyk doing....went out to eat wif gladys just now...quite nice...heard a lot of things about her...yeah :D ..dunno wad to say liaozzz...so just end her lahz!